Paranoia

It's really hard if you want to spill something but you can't. Coz of the fear, some people just don't know how to understand your situation and your feelings. And the least thing that you can do is to assure yourself that maybe some time, everything will be back to normal and you'll be fine as if never happened.

These past few days, I've been worried in my condition.

There's a thing that should happen in me but still, it was delayed.

I've been praying so hard that what I am thinking right now is impossible.

Or should I say possible, but pleaseeee..... I don't want that to happen *pray.

There are so many things to be considered.

One thing is accepting it.

Maybe that's the hardest part of this-accepting.

What will I gonna do?

Errrrr..

I can't tell it to anyone.

Even my best of friends nor my boyfriend don't know about this matter.

And even I want them to know about this..

I don't know how to say it...

It's getting worse and worse everytime.

And I'm getting sick of thinking about this.

~Paranoia