I hope I can be happy somewhere

I can't say yesterday was the worst,
but definitely it is one that hurts the most.

I am summoned by my law professor yesterday, And my boy was not in the good. What's frustrating was I don't know why. As we ate our lunch, I know that half of him was not with me.

I tried to cover things up by putting into topics whatever that crossed my mind, but still he's not with me. He just decided to embraced his silence.

After that "saddened" lunch, he asked me if he can go on our house on Sunday and not on Saturday which is the day that we agreed upon, because he's going to attend a group gathering in Parañaque on that day.. I want to say no but I do not have a choice. He is someone who do not take no for an answer. It should always be his decision that will prevail. And that put me more into confusion.

The sun sets and everything turned to darkness. I was convinced that all bad things are now over and I might call it a fair day. But I was wrong, I know that from the start I only half-own him, for he was still 'in' for his exgirlfriend. It was very painful to receive GM's from her ex telling every message that my boy sent to her on that same night. I cried and now, I still don't know what to expect. All I know is I'm hurting and trying to be okay.