"I know sometimes, its gonna rain.."

I don’t know our status right at this moment. We haven’t talk for awhile. I asked him to load up but he didn’t so I did the same too. I wonder what he’s thinking right now. Is he bothered as much as I am? I bet he’s not. But I prayed that he is.

There are no permanent things in this world indeed.
But sometimes it is easier to accept this fairytale statement rather than accept that it doesn’t exist. I know it will be easier for me to accept things if it will turn out wrong or not the way I expect it to be, because I’ve learned that in the process of this so-called love. It is better to expect more on the “less expectations” rather than cling in the positive side. It is not being pessimist. It is more likely to be, “I-am-happy-but-still-safe-of-getting-hurt” status, still safe but not incapable.

It is not unfair.
It is just a matter of accepting changes in a long run.
And getting ready for the worst case scenario.