What will happen next?

"The future is not set." It is one of my favorite lines from the movie "The Terminator.".
One moment you're happy then sooner or later it will be a tragic nor simple opposite of what you feel on the latter.

This day has been a roller coaster ride.
Before I went to bed yesterday midnight, Patt(a friend) and I had a super long conversation about him. What happened, what's new with us etc. etc.(DETAILS SEALED!)

I woke up at 10:30AM.
It's freaking hot so I went straight to the kitchen then grabbed a glass of iced water. Went back to the sala, then to the bedroom to fixed my things up. Yesterday is the supposed day of my homecoming in our "real" house. But Daña insist that I should stay here for 2 more days. She even asked me to hand her my cellphone so she can call my mom to tell about it but unfortunately I don't have enough load for a call, so I sent a message to my mom and she approves it. So I'm still here in Pandi. Woot! :)

After Lunch, while JV, Via, Vince, Daña and I were watching DVD (Men in Black II).
Daña fell in the sofa and her head hit the table's edge. Gawd! If you'll just heard how "boom" it was, you'll think that she can die in that moment. LOL.
I run to go get her coz she's starting to cry. I asked her if it hurts and she just stared at me and touch the back of her head. On that moment, I stood up and look at her head. Nothing unusual. And when I touched it and saw my hand --there were blood. As in BLOOD! Super dame. As in!!!

I am so shocked. I automatically grabbed her, try to bring her to her mom. (Kinaya ko yung batang yun nung oras na yon. Kahit super bigat niya!) My hands and shirt are full of blood. Nagfreaked out talaga ko non, iyak pa siya ng iyak. Tas ang hirap pa niya buhatin. It's like what you saw in a movie wherein you have to run to save someone's life. Hindi sa exaggeration. Pero parang ganon talaga.

We rushed her to the nearest clinic since super haba ng byahe at traffic pa pag sa ospital.
The doctor said that Thank God that it was just a simple wound. Nahiwa lang daw. Hindi naman malalim kaya hindi na kelangan ng stitches. Tumigil na siya sa pag-iyak. Pero natatawa pa rin ako pag naalala ko yung mga sinasabi niya saken kanina "Ayaw ko pa mamatay,' "Ayaw ko maubusan ng dugo." "Ooperahan ba ko Ate Cheska?" With matching iyak, uhog at hagulgol pa yan. Natawa ko kasi galing sa bata, 5years old tas ano ang gara.. "Ayaw ko pa mamatay.." Parang ang lalim. Kaya natawa na lang ako.

"The future is not set,
There is no fate.
The only fate we had is the one we make.."

You got me confused.

"COMPLICATED"

its when you don't know where you stand in a person's life. its when you're hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime. its when you're like more than friends but not really and its like you're lovers when its really the otherwise. sometimes you would want to wish to have never met the person at all,but at the back of your mind you're thankful you have.

Grab from Paula

It is somewhat you are single, yet taken for granted.
You're hurt yet can't blame anyone for your pain.
You're allowed to expect but not to assume.
It is your choice, my choice.
-Che

The sun came down to it's final set

It would have been a great day,
when the sun says hi to me.
It would have been a great day,
if when I opened my eyes this morning, it's you that I'll see.
It would have been a great day,
when I can sleep all day long with nothing to worry.

If I can summoned all my pains and sealed in a box,
It can be a great day.
If I can throw back all my remorse;
It can be a great day.

But nothing was left here to be great.
No you, No us.
Or even potentialities.
Only and only, ifs.

(C)Cheska

You're drawing circles in my system

The other day, we seemed to get along well,
Awhile ago, it felt like you don't want to share a word with me.
Now, you got me all confused.
Maybe tomorrow, when the sun rises it's peak,
you're coming home again to her.

Or maybe, just maybe
you'll stay.

Copyright (c) Cheska

Wow Astig!

April 26, 2009
Santiago's Reunion.
Ang saya kahit hindi masyado kumpleto masaya pa rin. Maraming bata kata nakakatuwa. Lagi pang topic yung debut ko, kasi eto yung next occassion after debut, so fresh pa. My mga palaro, syempre nanalo ako, naka P40 rin ako noh. Nabigyan din ako ng ninoy ni Tito Harold.

Pero siguro ang pinakaclimax ng lahat-lahat eh ang pagpapahiram saken ni Tito Howell ng SLR Nikon D300 niya. Grabe, ang saya saya ko. Feel na feel ko eh, kahit saglit lang. Grabe. Tas nalaman ko sikat na sikat na pala siya dahil siya yung kumuha ng Panorama ng Eheads concert, grabe asttiiiiiiiiiiig! Proud ako sa kanya saka gusto ko maging tulad niya. Sana bili na ko nila mama nun. :'( Minsan nagsisi ako kasi nagdebut party pa ko. Sana pala pinera ko na lang. Hayst. Pero yaan mo na. Dats layp! :)

52% virgin!

Here's the deal... Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Don't bother typing answers to the question....it makes it more interesting! The lower the score means the nastier you are.
Then repost as _% Virgin

1. Smoked?
2. Drank alcohol?
3. Cried when someone died?
4. Been drunk?
5. Had sex?
6. Been to a concert?
7. Given a handjob/gotten a handjob?
8. Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob?
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed?
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 92%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up?
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose?
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before?
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend?
15. Been to prom? -
16. Cried at school?
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store?
18. Went streaking?
19. Given or received a lap dance?
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over?
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house?
23. Kissed a stranger?
24. Hugged a stranger?
25. Went scuba diving?
26. Driven a car?
27. Gotten an x-ray?
28. Hit by a car?
29. Had a party?
30. Done serious drugs?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%

31. Played strip poker/darts?
32. Got paid to strip for someone?
33. Ran away from home?
34. Broken a bone?
35. Eaten sushi?
36. Bought porn?
37. Watched porn?
38. Made porn?
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
40. Been in love?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 76%

41. French kissed?
42. Laughed so hard you cried?
43. Cried yourself to sleep?
44. Laughed yourself to sleep?
45. Stabbed yourself?
46. Shot a gun?
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day?
48. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours?
49. Been online for 9 consecutive hours?
50. Watched an animal die?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 70%

51. Watched a person die?
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present?
53. Pranked somebody?
54. Put somebody in the hospital?
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out?
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex?
57. Dressed punk?
58. Dressed goth?
59. Dressed preppy?
60. Been to a motocross race?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 67%

61. Avoided somebody?
62. Been stalked?
63. Stalked someone?
64. Met a celebrity?
65. Played an instrument?
66. Ridden a horse?
67. Cut yourself?
68. Bungee jumped?
69. Ding dong ditched somebody?
70. Been to a wild party?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 60%

71. Got caught stealing something?
72. Kicked a guy in the balls? -I'll try :)
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend?
74. Went out with your friend's crush?
75. Got arrested?
76. Been pregnant? -Leksie? =)))
77. Babysat? -Always!
78. Been to another country?
79. Started your house on fire?
80. Had an encounter with a ghost?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 59%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients?
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by?
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex?
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months?
85. Sat on your butt all day?
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself?
87. Had a job?
88. Gotten cut from a sports team?
89. Been called a whore?
90. Danced like a whore?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 56%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity?
92. Been in a car accident?
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes?
94. Been told you have beautiful hair?
95. Raped somebody?
96. Danced in the rain?
97. Been rejected?
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying?
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face?
100. Been raped?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 52%

Big mouth

There are a lot of things that is occupying my mind this time. Love, Friends, school, Financial problems and boredom ofcourse. It is 12:57 in the morning and I can't find some movie to watch, or should I say, a good site to watch on. Awhile ago, I'm watching American Pie Beta Haus, I got thrilled, but unfortunately it did stop in the middle of the movie so nothing good happened. One more thing is my Yahoo Messenger, I can't open it. So I'm on Meebo lang. I don't know what's the problem with that. Nakakafrustrate lang lalo.

In addition pa yung mga tao sa friendster na tumatawag sa akin ng ate coz I'm 18 na. Almost all of them asked me how was it to be on legal age? Duuuh. For me, nothing happened naman eh. I just turned 18. Plus one lang sa age ko, nothing change in my routine and activities. I'm still the same damn lazy faggot slash dork in our compound, err minus the PC. (My computer is still fucked up. So Thank God I'm here at my aunt's house.) What's amazing about that? Maybe they are thinking that, now that I am 18 I can do whatever I want to do, or do things that my parents do not allow me to do when I am still considered a kid. Naaaaaaaah. For me, hindi ganon yon. My parents are open minded naman kahit paano. They are not the type of parents which is too conservative or what. And they do understand naman, syempre I'm studying at Manila, so the culture and the environment itself that I need/or get used to di ba? So yon.

Another thing is, si _____. Yon.
Hayst. I dunno. I really like him. Well pero magulo eh, mahirap ung situation. He likes someone else. Masyado siyang maraming iniisip. And I know iba rin ung tingin niya sakin. Sabi nga ng friend niya wag na daw ako maghintay. So what em I goin' to do diba? Hmmm. Pero ok naman ako kung anong meron kami ngayon. Atleast we are friends naman. We talk. We share problems. Pero kanina iba siya, moodswings na naman siguro. Tss daig pa talaga non ang babae kung topakin. Hahahah. :) Maybe that what makes him different. I cannot fully explain eh. But still, I do like him naman.

Sana may natulong ako sa kanya sa mga sinabi ko sa kanya na advice. He is so down. Ang emo emo nga niya eh. Tsk. I want him to be happy, but not with her ex. Maybe it will be best if he was with me. But I don't want to be selfish naman, so sabi nga niya, he's going to enjoy his life as a single.

Hayst.
This was the first time that I wrote and opened this much.
My hands just keep on pinching the keys, nakakatuwa. Iba yung feeling.
Heheh. My back aches pa rin. Tsss but it's ok. :)

Sputnik Sweetheart

"...I have this strange feeling that I'm not myself anymore. It's hard to put into words, but I guess it's like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling."

Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman.

These days I just can't seem to say what I mean [...]. I just can't. Every time I try to say something, it misses the point. Either that or I end up saying the opposite of what I mean. The more I try to get it right the more mixed up it gets. Sometimes I can't even remember what I was trying to say in the first place. It's like my body's split in two and one of me is chasing the other me around a big pillar. We're running circles around it. The other me has the right words, but I can never catch her.

Thyself.

1.ano ginagawa mo pag malungkot ka?
- Tulog na lang.
2.Madali bang mahalata na may topak ka?
- Oo.
3.Matagal ka bang mligo?
- Nope
4.Kumakain ka ba ng vegetables?
- Pili lang
5.Tamad ka ba?
- OO NAMAN!!
6.Mas gusto mo bang manood ng tv kesa magbasa ng libro?
- Naaah. I don't watch TV that much.
7.Nakapulot ka na ng pera?
- Nakadukot. :)
8.Madami best friends mo?
- Oo.
9.May gusto kang tao?
- Oo.
10.May crush ka?
- Marame!
11.Sino?
- Marame nga.
12.Nagsisimba ka ba sa linggo?
- Hindi
13.Kasama mo ba family mo?
- Wala ko sa bahay ngayon.
14.nagdadasal ka ba bago matulog?
- Definitely!
15.Mahilig ka ba sa ice cream?
- SUPER YES!!
16.Nag-iinarte ka ba?
- Depende sa situation
17.Masamang tao ka ba?
- Pag masama ka rin sakin
18.Anong iniisip mo ngayon?
- Yung YM ko
19.Pano ka manamit?
- Simple lang.
22.Pano mo tratuhin ang ibang tao?
- Depende kung anong klase.
23.Mahal mo ba sarili mo?
- Let me think.
25.Anong uring kaibigan ka?
- Kaibigan. :)
26.Sweet ka ba?
- Oo. :)
27.Malakas ka ba tumawa?
- Oo.
29. SELOSO/SELOSA ka ba?
- Sobra pa nga ata eh.
30. WARFREAK ka ba?
- Di na ata ngayon
31. Ano ang karamihang FIRST IMPRESSION sau?
- Judge me. HAHAHHA!
32. Mabilis ka magka-CRUSH ?
- Ako pa!
33. anung STATUS mo ngayon?
- Single and ready to mingle!
34. Madali ka bang MAKALIMOT?
- Ng utang hindi.
36. Importante FRIENDS OR LOVED ONES?
- Both.
37. Naniniwala ka ba SA LOVE?
- Oo naman yes!
38.Ano oras ka na ntlog kgbe?
- Actually umaga. 5am.
39. Iyakin ka ba pagdating sa love!!
- Medyo na lang
4o. May KINAIINISAN ka ba ngaun?
- Wala naman.
41. Cno madalas m katxt?
- No specific person.
42. HATE mo na TAO?
- Can't tell.
43. Matampuhin ka bng tao?
- . Oo
44. Cno namimiss mo sa ngayon?
- (--.
45. Are you a TXT-ADDICT?
- Hindi na po te.
46. MASAYA ka ba ngayon?
- So-so
47. Last question, sinong love mo?
- Ikaw.

Stupid Questions with Stupid Answers

1. OK na sana araw ko kahapon, kaso?
- Di ako nakatulog dahil sa hinayupak na pusa!
2. Ano mas masarap, magpatawa o tumawa?
- Kumain.
3. May "special" ka ba na body part, na kakaiba sa ibang tao? ano un?
- Wala naman akong buntot.
4. Sino huling tao na nagpakilig sayo?
- J~ (--.
5. Ano mas piliin mo, SOBRA sakit na hangover sa alak, o hangover sa past love mo? (parehas tatagal ng 3 months)
- Kahit ano, keri ko naman eh.
6. If ever you're in my arms again..
- this time i'll love you much better
8. Ano mas ok, naka FERRARI pero ubod ng pangit, o naka BESTA pero ubod ng ganda?
- Di ko alam ung besta. Sorry naman. :)
9. Favorite streetfood mo?
- Calamares
10. Gusto mo ba ang mga lalaking KALBO? Kahit gano pa kagwapo yun pero kalbo?
- Oo para kamukha ni Smiley. Yung sa YM :)
11. May gusto ka bang tao ngayon, pero alam mo na ndi pwde? bakit? sino un?
- Oo meron. Long story.
12. Kung iibahin mo name mo, anong pangalan un?
- Psst!
13. Cnu ang mga taong "weakness" mo?
- Family
14. Flirt mode ON or OFF?
- always ON!
15. Tingin mo, ilan may gusto sayo ngayon?
- I told you before, lahat ng tao sa mundo.
16. Ako ang______sa pamilya..
- pinakamaganda
17. Ano role mo sa barkada mo pag inuman?
- Tigainom.
18. Bigyan kita ng chance na dagdagan ang bilang ng kahit anong body part mo, ano un at bakit?
- 12 fingers. Para cool.
19. Ano reason ng last time mo nainis?
- Pinsan ko. Iyakin kasi.
20. Best sa ________ si _________?
- Censored.
21. San the best manood ng movie na may kadate?
- Sa sinehan.
22. Last person na nagtext sayo?
- Di ko alam. Malayo ang cp eh
23. Kapag ginawa sayo ng GF/BF mo, makikipagbreak ka kagad, ano un?
- 2 time.
24. Ang init! favorite pampalamig mo pag mainit?
- Yelo!
25. Ilang beses mo na nagawa matulog na walang damit?
- sige mamaya try ko.
26. Magvvideoke tayo ngayon, ano kakantahin mo?
- On the wings of love.
27. Rate mo kung gano ka kasaya ngayon[1-10]:
- .0000003
28. Bakit ganyan rating mo?
- Para cool.
29. Nakakita ka na ba ng pulubi na may cellphone? kung makakita ka ng ganun, bibigyan mo pa din ng pera?
- Oo. Mas maganda pa nga sa cellphone ko.
30. Kung magpapatattoo ka ng pangalan ng tao sa katawan mo, kaninong pangalan un?
- Pangalan ko.
31. Sang part ng katawan mo ilalagay ung tatoo?
- Cleavage.
32. Choosy ka ba?
- Pag my topak.
33. Ano mas mabilis mapalitan sayo, cellphone o GF/BF?
- BF wala ko pera pambili cp.
34. Bat nauso na ngayon ang gwapo na BF, pero pangit na GF?
- Dahil sa gravity.

Pigaan ng Utak

1.Paano ka matulog, nakapatay o nakasindi ilaw?
-- Di na ko natutulog. :p
2. Kanino ka huli nagselos?
-- Ke Jen. Kilala mo?
3. Kung lahat ng babae/lalake pwede bilhin, sino bibilhin mo?
-- __________
5. Magbigay ka ng isang reason bakit mo sya gusto?
-- Nakakchallenge siya.
6. Matitino ba mga nagkakagusto sayo?
-- Nanay ko lang may gusto sakin.
7. Eh matino nman ba ung gusto mo?
-- Emo siya.
8. Last reason kung bakit ka tumawa?
-- Dahil ke Patt. Gago eh.
9. Sino huli mo nakasama sa SM at ano ang ginawa nyo?
-- Mom and Brother, pinagawa cp ko. Kumain sa sizzling.
10. Bakit siya/sila kasama mo dun?
-- Masama ba?
11. Person na recently mo lang nakita ulit, pero masaya ka nakita mo sya.
-- UST Classmates. :'((
12. Mahirap magmahal ng _________?
-- Bato
13. Date after ng breakup ex mo, BABALIK KA PA O MOVE ON?
-- Move on
14. Para sayo, tingin mo, paano mo malalaman kung may gusto sayo isang tao?
-- Eh di pag sinabi niya. Manhid ako. Can't feel. LOL
15. MISSING?
-- Ang?
16. Ilan nagkakagusto sayo?
-- Lahat ng tao na ginawa ng Diyos!
17. Bakit?
-- Maganda at sexy ako.
18. Halata ka ba pag inlove ka?
-- Oo. Bwisit nga eh.
19. In-love ka ba?
-- Ahhhh. *patweetums
20. Kung oo, kanino nman? At bkt?
-- Ke ano nga ____________
21. Nasayo na ba ang puso mo, o ndi pa din nababalik sayo?
-- Natatanggal ba yon?
23. May nakiss ka na ba na ndi mo GF/BF?
-- Madami.
24. Eh may gusto ka i kiss pero ndi mo pa nakikiss?
-- Wala. Nakiss ko na lahat. HAHAHAHAHAH!
25. Kung sasali ka ng PBB tingin mo matatanggap ka?
-- Hindi. Wala ako balak sumali.
26. Pili ka, mapaso muka mo or mapaso puso mo?
-- Kaw kaya pasuin ko?
27. Na kiss kana ba sa bedroom?
-- Sa lips ako kinikiss eh. HAHHAHAH!
28. Nagkagusto ka na ba sa GF/BF/X ng friend mo? Sino sya?
-- Hindi pa naman.
29. Cnu bago sa contacts mo sa cp?
-- Si Mark Co at si Palong.
30. Lagi ka ba nagttxt?
-- Pag may load.
31. Saan ka pupunta bukas?
-- Dito lang samen. Chill.
32. Cno last person na humawak sa kamay mo?
-- Si Daña
33. Anu mo sya?
-- Pinsan
34. Maganda/gwapo ka ba?
-- Saying the obvious is foolishness.
35. Anu network mo? Globe, Smart, Sun?
-- Globe.

Do You Fact?

100 facts
1. First name/second name
>>> Francheska
2. Nicknames:
>>> Cheska, Kekang, Kekai, Chekai, Chekakai, Iska and Frankie
3. Married:
>>> Wala ngang boyfriend eh, gago ka ah. HAHAHHA
4. Zodiac sign:
>>> Aries
5. Male or female:
>>> Female
6. Age:
>>> 18 (I'm old na ba?)
7. Highschool:
>>> Jesus Is Lord Colleges Foundation (Bocaue Branch)
8. College:
>>> University of Santo Tomas
9. Residence (s):
>>> Bulacan
10. Hair color:
>>> Ahhhm? Madame. Pero ang alam ko fire red. :))
11. Long or short hair:
>>> Quite long na.
12. Smoke:
>>> Ssssssssh
13. Drink:
>>> Yes.
14. Available:
>>> AFK. =))))))))))))
15. Are you a health freak:
>>> Not that much.
16. Height:
>>> Secret.
17. Do you have a crush?:
>>> Ofcourse.
18. Do you like yourself:
>>> It depends on the situation.
20. Tattoos:
>>> Yuck!
21. Righty or lefty:
>>> Righty eh?
22. First surgery:
>>> When I was a kid. Bone chuva surgery.
24. First best friend/s:
>>> Elementary classmates.
27. First pet:
>>> I never had one.
28. First vacation:
>>> Araw araw bakasyon. :)
30. First crush:
>>> Too many too mention. Even the first ONES. :))
49. Eating:
>>> Expert! =)
50. Drinking:
>>> Why not chocnut!
52. I'm about to:
>>> Turn off my computer.
53. Listening to:
>>> Electric fan. Ingay eh? Hahaha!
FAVORITES:
54. Food:
>>> CARBONARA!!
55. Drinks:
>>> Anything will do.
56. Colors:
>>> ROYGIVIB!
57. Numbers:
>>> 7&& 16
YOUR FUTURE:
58. Want kids:
>>> Yesshhh!
59. Want to get married:
>>> I'll think about it muna 'kay?
60. Careers in mind:
>>> Basta may pera GO!
WHICH IS BETTER?:
68. Lips or eyes:
>>> BOTH!
69. Hugs or kisses:
>>> More than that.
70. Shorter or taller:
>>> Taller.
72. Romantic or spontaneous:
>>> Romantic
73. Nice stomach or nice arms:
>>> Nice stomach
74. Sensitive or loud:
>>> Loud.
75. Hook-up or relationship:
>>> Casual affairs.
78. Kissed a stranger:
>>> Yesh! :)
79. Drank bubbles:
>>> Tangina. Ano ko baliw?
80. Lost glasses/contacts:
>>> Yes. :'(
81. Ran away from home:
>>> Once.
82. Liked someone younger:
>>> Nope.
83. Older:
>>> Yesss
84. Broken someones heart:
>>> Sort of
85. Been arrested:
>>> Not yet.
86. Turned someone down:
>>> I dunno?
87. Cried when someone died:
>>> I'm a crybaby. So ofcourse.
88. Liked a friend:
>>> Yesh. Almost everytime. Hahah!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. In yourselF:
>>> Yes.
90. Miracles:
>>> Hmmm?
91. Love at first sight:
>>> Fairytale ba itey?
92. Heaven:
>>> Yes
93. Santa claus:
>>> Naaaah!
94. Sex on the first date:
>>> LOL!
95. The more you hate, the more you love:
>>> It depends.
96. Angels:
>>> No.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
97. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?:
>>> YES. Si _______.
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?
>>> Yes. :')
99. Do you believe in God?:
>>> YES!

He's UN-taken

After 3 days and a half. Our CPU got fixed. Horaay to my muscles who instinctively carry our CPU from Bocaue till here in Malolos. My Ninong and Tito Renee fixed it for me. It's an extended gift I think. Hahaha! Well, until now I'm still here in TELOF's office using my Ninong's desktop. It was a great day I must say. Why? Except that our PC and my CP is now fixed, I found out that the man that I fancy is now single. Hahhaha! Well, I am so happy about that. LOL! Kachat ko nga siya ngayon eh, una dun sa facebook, he invited me to play Poker, then I said something about Pet Society, aun naglaro na rin siya. Pero nawala ata yung chat sa FB kaya YM na lang. Hahah wala lang. :) I hope na magtagal ung pagiging single niya, kasi knowing his ex, lagi naghahabol ung hayop na yon. LMAO! :) Tsss. Am I being mean? Well I think I am not, if you'll judge it in a "puppy love meter" thingy. LOL.

Happy 18th Birthday to me!

Happy 18th Bday to me!

Fun! Fun! Fun! Kahit late na nagstart at di masyadong oraganize, masaya naman. :))
Thanks sa mga HS friends, and College friends na nakapunta. :) Sana nag enjoy kayo. Medyo emotional lang yung ibang moments, you know naman da ba :))) LOL!

Nag-enjoy ako sa WAVE!! Hahhaha!
Tas sa inuman rin, kahit medyo bitin.
Lashing na kasi si KP HAHHAHAHAHHAHAH! :)))))))


I love the Carbonara. :)
Wooooot!



Di ko rin kineri yung wig ko :)))
Thanks talaga! I love you guys!!


Pahintay na lang yung mga official Photos. :)
Tagal nung photographer eh. LMAO!

Thank You Guys!

April 16-17 2009 was the happiest day and the best thing that happened in my life as of now. Not just because I'd celebrated my 18th birthday and received gifts from my loved ones. It is because I felt so much loved from my family and friends.

Hindi pa ko naging ganito kasaya with the past 17 years of my life. Iba kasi yung feeling na, yesterday feeling mo bata ka pa rin sa paningin nila ngayon dalaga na. Oha! Parang ang bongga diba? Idagdag mo pa yung wig ko. HAHAHHAH!

Tas yung mga high school friends ko nandon din. Ang cute tignan. Wiiii,
Tas yung mga college friends ko rin, yung iba galing pang Laguna and Batangas pero go pa rin. Super thank you talaga mga friends! :) Sana nag-enjoy kayo sa lahat, sa food, sa venue, sa swimming, sa waves at etc. Pasensya na kung nagsiksikan yung iba sa rooms.

Salamat din sa alak na dinala niyo! Kahit bitin ang inom ko ang saya pa rin. :)
Sayang di na ko nakabalik, nakakatamad kasi bumaba ng hagdan tas maglakad pa. Hahahaha!

Yung mga nakasama naman namen ni mama sa rooms, I know tuwang tuwa kayo ke Kuya MJ. Hahahha! Lalo na dun sa anong pinagkaiba ng hotel at motel. :))) Super saya! :)
Sayang at bitin lang talaga, ang aga kasi ninyo umuwi.

Pero all in all
FUN! :)
Thank You ulit.
Sana maulit yung ganitong moments!

So cute, it hurts.

Kaya nahihirapan tayo na magpatawad ng isang taong nakasakit sa atin,
ay dahil inilalagay natin sa isip natin na tayo lang ang nasasaktan.

Stressed Out

My debut is fast approaching, and the tension and stress is really bumming me like hell. There are so many conflicts and alteration that was made. Plus, there are guests that I am expecting to come who texted me these days that they will not make it. Sad. :'((

One more thing, my tito lolo was rushed to the hospital last monday due to gall bladder stones. He need to undergo an operation this Thursday. So his family will not make it, including Daña, who is my Little Miss Debutante on my Bday. Errrr. What's happening? :'((

Haysst. But still, I am not losing hope that everything will turn out well.
The least thing that I can do now is to celebrate my bday as good as I can manage to. I'll make enjoy na lang in that night. Once in a lifetime lang naman to, so I'll be happy as in happy na lang.

Tomorrow, I need to wake up as early as 9:30AM. WTH!!! Hahahaha!
Coz I need to go to the post office and mail some letters and go straight to Bagong Barrio to pick up my gowns. Sana kasya pa siya. Tumaba na daw kasi ako since nung nagfitting eh. Hahaha! :))

So yown. I need to sleep now.
:) Goodnight~

April 14,2009
12:58PM

It's a fling thing!

Youth nowadays knows about this one for sure.
Especially those who go to the clubs and do dirty stuffs. *wink

I went to the salon awhile ago. And while waiting, I came across to read one of the magazines in the racks. I forgot who the author is, but this article is about having a fling, fuck buddies, or a kissing friend or whatever you want to call it. It says there that "A fling is like a chocolate, you like it but you don't need it." I agreed and find it interesting so I read the whole article.

Here are some "NEVER-to-do if you happened to have a fling"
In my case, it is a him.
Gets?

Never ask question.
You are not supposed to know him better. He is what he gives, shows and tells you.
That's it. Period.

Never demand anything.
You take only the cards he lays on the table, which to be honest, aren't a lot. Don't expect that you'll get the whole deck. You don't own it, in the first place.

Never check up on him.
You are not the girlfriend who knows her guy's daily itinerary, from the time he takes his coffee down to the minute he begins snoring. He has his own schedule and he expects to have your own-without having to compare notes.

Never get to know him, his family, or his friends.
He wants this clear: you are not part of his world. The only world you have with him is within the confines of his car, his room and his bedsheets.

Never make him part of your life too.
Live your life like he doesn't even exist. Most likely he's doing the same. It's there when it's there. And you'll never know when it will strike or come back.

Never give your all.
You only give as much as he does; and if you can help it, even less.

Never need him.
Need alcohol more for it just cause you a day or less to suffer.
Needing him is like having a hangover 24/7. Consider him a bonus treat. Always remember why you're with him: Have fun. Maybe feel good about yourself. He's an escape, not an essential.

Never expect anything.
Not even something lame, like a text reply. Male shares another nugget of wisdom, "Don't expect a transition to a real relationship. It is what it is."

And lastly,
Never say "I love You".
There's a reason why he's not saying those words, it is because he doesn't love you.
This is the ultimate risk you take when going for a fling, you can fall in love. And how will the relationship ever work in favor if it has been set on one key rule since day one: "Never fall in love." That's why fling is so irresistable. They challenge what you know and feel to be in your limits.

But for me, there's also a good advantage and good thing in having a fling. It let us know the real scenario, that in life. Everyone is really in need to have fun. It may not sounds good for others, but nowadays, it is true.
It also brings us the reality that real relationship does not come just in a snap.
We need to build it level by level in the right person, in the right time and in the right way.


Coool!
Do I sound like a guro? LOL!

Sa lahat ng nakairingan ko

May nakita na naman akong blog na about sakin, ofcourse negative na naman yon. Pero imbes na magalit, maasar, mapikon o kung ano pa ang maramdaman ko. Eh natawa na lang ako. Dun ko napatunayan na hindi na ko katulad dati nor katulad nila/niya na mababaw ang pag-iisip at makitid ang utak para palakihin pa yung ganung issue. Sawa na rin kasi ako sa ganon.

Dun ko rin napagtanto na napatawad ko na sila pati ang sarili ko.
Alam ko may mali rin ako. Isa na dun yung patulan sila.
Marami rin akong mga nagawa at nasabi na nasaktan sila kaya naging ganon sila sakin. Tanggap ko yon. Yung mga blog ko na kahit papano eh nakapukaw ng atensyon nila, at kahit kaunti eh naasar o napikon sila, alam ko mali yon. Alam kong tama naman ang dahilan ko kung bakit ko ginawa yon--Gusto ko lang pagtanggol yung sarili ko, ngunit, namali ako ng paraan kung paano.

Easter Sunday ngayon. At malapit na rin akong magdebut. *Yeheey!! :))
Ayokong tumuntong ako sa legal na edad na may bitbit bitbit na ganitong pakiramdam, sama ng loob sa kahit na sino mang tao baga. Ayaw kong umabot ako ng bente na ganito pa rin ang pag-iisip ko. Gusto ko magmature, at sisimulan ko na yon ngayon. Well actually noon pa. Pinagdadasal ko nga kaluluwa niyo eh. *Totoo un. :)

Kaya, sa lahat ng nakaaway, nakariingan, nakaargumento, naasar at napikon ko ngayong taon oh nung mga nakalipas pa. Patawad po. :) Patawad sa mga nagawa ko na mali, alam ko may nasaktan rin ako. Pero hindi porke't humihingi ako ng tawad eh binabawi ko na lahat ng sinabi ko. Hindi. Totoo lahat yon. Kung ano man ang nabasa niyo dito sa Multiply blog at Blogspot ko. Totoo yon. Mali lang talaga yung paraan ng pagkakasabi kasi nakasakit ako.

At sa mga taong hindi ko naman kilala na nagagalit sa akin,
Aba'y ewan ko sainyo.
Hindi ko naman kayo kilala pero dahil sa mga posts ng kaibigan niyo at mga chismis na pinapakalat nila eh nagkaroon na rin kayo ng galit sakin. Ang masasabi ko lang sainyo eh isang malaking "Haaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyysssssssssssssss". =))

Kung darating man yung panahon na makasalubong ko yung isa man sainyo, ngingitian ko kayo ng bonggangbongga. Walang halong kaplastikan at walang halong biro. Nasasainyo na lang yon kung ngingiti kayo ng totoo pabalik.

At kung mayron man na lumabas ulit na shit blog about sa akin oh kahit kung ano ano pa.
Tatawanan ko na lang yon. Wala rin naman kayong niloloko kung di sarili niyo.
Hintayin ko na lang na mapagod at kainin kayo ng lupa dahil sa pagkainsecure niyo.
Harsh man ang dating niyan. Sincere naman ako.

Sa gumawa ng posers account ko dito sa Multiply, pati na rin sa mga sumoporta don.
Maraming Salamat! =) Napatawa niyo ko.
Wag kayong mag-alala napatawad ko na rin kayo. :)
Sana next time website naman.

Sa mga tao na walang ibang masabi sa akin kung di "PANGET AKO"
Wag na kayo magpagod. Alam ko naman yon.
Sinasabi rin sakin ni mama na pangit ako kaya sanay na ko. HAHAHAH! :))
Ako kaya si SuperBoink. :)

Alam naman natin kung ano ano ang mali na nagawa natin at pagkukulang sa pagkontrol sa sarili eh. Pinakawalan ko na lahat ng galit at asar ko sainyo. Ayaw ko mabuhay ng ganon.
Nasasainyo na lang rin kung anong gagawin niyo.

Mabuhay tayong Lahat! =)

'Kay-Effff_Zzzzzzzzzz

A day with Lolo Det in SM Marilao. This is the first Saturday since he went back here in the country. We shopped furnitures for his house. Micko and I enjoyed laying in some of the sofas and bed at "Our Home" botique.

Lolo wants to purchase a bed worth P51,900. WOAAAH! (bigeyes) Yaamaan ni padir. Hahahha! ;))
We also went at SM Department Store, namili ng mga gamit sa bahay. Sa banyo to be exact. Ginawa naming P1,500 ung purchase para we have a free basket. Promo raw yun eh. :)

Nakakatawa si Micko, lahat na kasi ata nung toys dun kinuha niya at prinisinta sa mommy niya na bilin para maging P1,500 ung purhcase namin. Hahahah. My cousin is a retard indeed. IKR! :)))

Then after that. Syempre pagod kami. At asusual gutom ako. :)
So we went sa KFC.
Umorder kami ng:
1 Summer bucket meal
3 Mushroom Soup
1 order of Chicken Fillet
8 extra rice
3 Large drinks
1 Large Fries

Hmmmm*yumyum!!*
7 kaming kumain non. :) Ang sayaaa! :))
Woot! Nagpicture picture ng konti before umuwi. Kaya lang pangit lang ung cam. Kasi camphone lang. :) Sensyaaa.

Ang saya pa rin :p
Sana lagi kami ilibre ni Lolo.
Tas binili pa ko ni mama ng party popper para sa debut ko.
Tas tomorrow I'm gonna dye my hair again to red.
Yeeehhhheeeyyy!


April 12, 2009 Fun Fun Fun! :))

Holy Week minus .0005 boredom

Holy Week.
It's Black Saturday na!
It's good to know that my Holy Week is not as boring like last year. :)
Wooott! Syempre for some reasons I got bored rin. But hindi na masyado.

Unlike last year, Lolo came back here in the Philippines. Meaning, there are people who come over here now and then to take a visit, para makita siya. Then, meron ding mga chocolates na mangangata pag wala ka ng magawa. :)) LOL Much! :p

Unlike last year, we have our internet connection now. So I am not forced to sit and watch hoyly shows on TV. All I have to do is sit here at the front of my desktop and go surfin' the net as long as I want. Technology was indeed a great escape to boredom. :))

Well, don't think naman na hindi ako nagpakabait this Holy Week.
Every night, I find some time to reflect and talk to God. Well, usual thing naman sakin yon eh. Kaya for me, Holy Week is just an ordinary day. Kaya nakakainis yung iba na pag Holy Week lang talaga nagdadasal at naglalaan ng oras sa Diyos. Tss. Screw them! Mga pakitang tao. Tsskkk!

So yown. I need to sleep now.
But maybe mayamaya na, hindi pa talaga kasi ako inaantok.
Mamaya punta kami SM with Lolo, woot! Sana magshopping. Hahahah.
Then punta sa venue ng Debut, bibigay yung pictures for my tarp.

I think that the following week will be the most hectic week eh.
Hectic ang sched ko. I feel like I'm a star. LOL!
Sunday, I have a wedding to attend on.
Monday, I have to visit one of my ninang to give them their copy of invitation.
Tuesday, Hmmm. Well I still don't have any plans right now for this day.
Wednesday, me and my mom will go and pick up my gowns.
Thursday-Friday is my Daaayyy!
Saturday will be my rest day.

Ohaaa! A very busy week! :)
Sana hindi ulit mastressed. Ang hirap kasi eh pag ganon. :p
It feels like you're torturing your ownself. You worry too much.
Yung super occupied yung pag-iisip mo. Duuuh! Nakaksuffocate :p

Naalala ko lang.
This is my 1st Holy Week without my dad. :(
Sad. It's been 2 days since I talked to him.
Ano na kaya ngyare don? May holy week rin kaya dun sa Dubai?
Baka naman kinain na ng camel yung papa ko. LOL! Joke langg! :p
Miss you papa :)


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"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son,
that whose so ever believes in Him shall not perish and will have an eternal life.."
John 3:16

Francis M.'s Legacy

I can't really find a reason why did God let this happened to Francis M. He was a good man, a good artist, a good friend, a good father and indeed a good citizen. But as the same story of life goes. God knows everything that it's good for all His child. And He has His own reasons.

The King of Rap finally met his Master. He died due to Leukemia, (cancer of the blood).
These are some of his pictures during his battle.
To view his pictures click this>> http://bittercheska.multiply.com/photos/album/310
< ~~, I am really not a fan of Francis M., I am just really amazed of his story. He was a good man, as I've heard in his friend's interview, he was the best father for his children and a good man for his nation.

His songs was surely be immortalized by our generation and for the upcoming generations too. Reading his posts, I can say that he had lived his life to the fullest. He had lived his life good and productive.

He serves his country well.
Enlightened his countrymen tru his songs.
Show how life is beautiful tru his photographs.


He is indeed a legacy.
A legacy for Filipinos to be proud of.


Thank You Francis. :)
Thank You for sharing your life to us,
for your musics and for your photographs.
Your memories will surely be treasured and remain in our hearts.


Got these pictures from:
http://francismagalona.multiply.com/
http://happybattle.multiply.com/


This post was sorta' late.
Sorry. :)

Mixed Emotions.

I don't know how will I explain this feeling. I don't know if I am stressed, disappointed or somewhat anxious. I really don't know. :'(
6 days to go before my big day. And I am 30% excited, 50% disappointed and 20% anxious?
Excited coz it is my 18th birthday.
Disappointed because most of my friends, classmates to be exact will not make it. :'(
Sad. *sobs* There is too much conflict. First yung place. Second yung date.. :'(

Hayst! Again, Disappointed because, I really put an effort on preparing for this for them. My mom even said that, I should have plan this well for my classmates. But now, some of them will not come for some reasons. I can't help to be like this, I'm sorry. ='(
I really want to celebrate this event with you guys. ;'((

Si Janella di rin aabot. Siya pa naman MC ko.
Waaaahhh... :'(( I was thinking na si Louise na lang sana yung papalit ko for MC, but hindi rin pala siya makakarating. :'(( Awww.
Until now, wala pa ko mahanap na partner ni Ads. :'((
Anubeyen! Stressed na ko. Sayang beauty. (--.
Wala na atang nacomplete sa kahit anong set ng 18 ko. :[
Sana magawan parin ng paraan. SANA.
Pilitin niyo pa rin makapunta.


I'm looking forward also sa mga HS friends ko.
Hope they'll make it. :/


But yeah, I understand everything naman. :'( Pero... :'((
NAKAKAPAGTAMPO. :((
Well, ganon talaga eh. For those who'll come. Thank you so much. :'(
Basta let's enjoy na lang. =/

Haruki Murakami

"If you only read the books that everyone else is reading, you can only think what everyone else is thinking."
— Haruki Murakami

"But who can say what's best? That's why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives."
— Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)

"Anyone who falls in love is searching for the missing pieces of themselves. So anyone who's in love gets sad when they think of their lover. It's like stepping back inside a room you have fond memories of, one you haven't seen in a long time."
— Haruki Murakami

"Here's what I think, Mr. Wind-Up Bird," said May Kasahara. "Everybody's born with some different thing at the core of their existence. And that thing, whatever it is, becomes like a heat source that runs each person from the inside. I have one too, of course. Like everybody else. But sometimes it gets out of hand. It swells or shrinks inside me, and it shakes me up. What I'd really like to do is find a way to communicate that feeling to another person. But I can't seem to do it. They just don't get it. Of course, the problem could be that I'm not explaining it very well, but I think it's because they're not listening very well. They pretend to be listening, but they're not, really. So I get worked up sometimes, and I do some crazy things."
— Haruki Murakami (The Wind-up Bird Chronicle)

"And it came to me then. That we were wonderful traveling companions but in the end no more than lonely lumps of metal in their own separate orbits. From far off they look like beautiful shooting stars, but in reality they're nothing more than prisons, where each of us is locked up alone, going nowhere. When the orbits of these two satellites of ours happened to cross paths, we could be together. Maybe even open our hearts to each other. But that was only for the briefest moment. In the next instant we'd be in absolute solitude. Until we burned up and became nothing."
— Haruki Murakami (Sputnik Sweetheart)

"Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

An you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about."
— Haruki Murakami (Kafka on the Shore)

"Don't feel sorry for yourself. Only assholes do that."
— Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)

"But even so, every now and then I would feel a violent stab of loneliness. The very water I drink, the very air I breathe, would feel like long, sharp needles. The pages of a book in my hands would take on the threatening metallic gleam of razor blades. I could hear the roots of loneliness creeping through me when the world was hushed at four o'clock in the morning."
— Haruki Murakami (The Wind-up Bird Chronicle) emo!

"What do you think? I'm not a starfish or a pepper tree. I'm a living, breathing human being. Of course I've been in love."
— Haruki Murakami (Kafka on the Shore)

"It's hard to tell the difference between sea and sky, between voyager and sea. Between reality and the workings of the heart."
— Haruki Murakami

"For both of us, it had simply been too enormous an experience. We shared it by not talking about it. Does this make any sense?"
— Haruki Murakami (Wind-Up Bird Chronicle)

"Sometimes when I look at you, I feel I'm gazing at a distant star.
It's dazzling, but the light is from tens of thousands of years ago.
Maybe the star doesn't even exist any more. Yet sometimes that light seems more real to me than anything."
— Haruki Murakami



http://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/3354.Haruki_Murakami


Thanks Valia Mae~

mgmanuel_17

I miss you papa :'((
I miss talkin to you.
Miss arguing and fighting with you. :'((

You are the only man who serves as my "other half". Wish you were here when I reach 18. :'((
But I understand that you have to go abroad. I know that it is for our own sake. :'((

But my father, I miss you. :(
We all miss you here.

I missed the times when I have to stay up light and wait for you just to do my Math assignments. :) I missed our "chess game". :)
I missed everything. :)

The greatest gift I ever had
Came from God; I call him Dad!
I love you papa as the stars - your a bright shining example and a happy twinkling in my heart.

A father is always making his baby into a little woman. And when she is a woman he turns her back again.
~Enid Bagnold

Mistaken Identity

Sa sobrang boring ng bakasyon. Wala na kong ginawa kung di ang magtake ng mga quiz sa Facebook. Nakakatuwa rin naman, kasi kahit papano, kung alam mo sa sarili mo na yung mga sinasagot mo sa quiz eh taos sa puso. Taos din sa katotohanan yung matatanggap mo na result.

Sabi sa isang quiz. Sydney daw talaga ang true name ko. Sabi ko naman? WTF? LOL. Ayaw ko ng Sydney. Syempre Loyal pa rin ako sa Cheska na pangalan.

Pero gusto ko yung characteristics sa pangalan na Sydney. "You have a loud personality, and has a trouble shutting up." Bullseye meehnn! Para kong binaril sa ulo eh. Deadbol agad. Hahaha. Oo tama yan. Mga kaibigan ko ang magpapatunay. Dakdakina nga ako. Ang dami ko sinasabi. Yung tipong parang may sariling processor yung bibig ko. Nonstop pa nga yan minsan eh. MAchine Gun baga! :))
"You often pretend you don't care, when it is clear you care more then you should." Another bullseye na naman. STRIKE 2! Mahirap magpretend na wala kang pakeelam kahit ang totoo eh ang gusto mong mangyare eh makatulong ka o basta mainvolce ka sa isang issue. Hindi naman sa nagmamagaling ka o sa chismosa. Sadyang may mga bagay lang na gusto mong nandon ka dahil may pakeelam ka. Ganon ako eh, kahit sino oh kahit sa anong bagay eh may pakialam ako. Pero syempre hindi sa lahat ng oras dapat ipaalam mo at ibroadcast mo sa lahat na "Oyyyy may pakialam ako!". Syempre hindi ko rin alam yung iisipin ng iba. Kaya yon, tahimik at todo pretend ebur na lang ako na as if wala kong care sa kanila.

"You take people very seriously." Ayoko sa joke. Honestly kahit masayahin akong tao at lagi nagjojoke ng kung ano-ano eh ayaw ko talaga sa joke. LOL. It might be confusing pero yun talaga. Lalo na dun sa mga taong kala mo seryoso sa sinasabi yun pala nagjojoke time lang. Tangina! Baka masipa lang kita ng bonggang bongga! ;) *Minsan ganon na dapat ang gagawin ko. Pero syempre, "self-control".*

"You are lazy, but are open to adventure." Lazy. Oo lazy ako. Ako si Lazy Cheska. Hahahah! Batugan nga tawag saken ng nanay ko eh, wala na raw akong ginawa kung di maupo, kumain, humiga, magtext at matulog. *Duuh? Di na nga ko natutulog eh. LOL*!
Open to adventure? Oo naman yes! Kahit ano, kahit saan go lang ako. Kahit anong klaseng chuva ek ek pa yan. Basta mukhang masaya at trip ko naman, eh lumalarga ako. At syempre, basta papayagan ni ama't ina. Hahahah.
Ayaw ko naman kasi ikulong ung sarili ko sa environment na kinagisnan ko na. Except sa nakakasawa na, syempre tumatanda na ko. Tas malay mo madapa ako bukas habang naglalakad at boom. Patay na. Eh di hindi ko man lang na"Live life to the fullest."

And lastly, "You take what you like seriously, you are easily obssessed,"
Lagyan natin ng twist.
Totoo yan ng bonggang bongga! Lalo na pagdating sa lalake. HAHAHHAH! =))
Ngayon kasi ano ke *** LOL! :))=))
Tangina. Kinikilig ako e. Pag naalala ko siya. :))
Woott! Nabasa niyo ba to?
http://bittercheska.multiply.com/journal/item/171/You_confused_me.
Siya inspirasyon ko diyan. Nagawa ko yan kinabukasan nung umalis kami.
Eh wala ako mapagkwentuhan sa bahay. Kaya dinaan ko na lang sa pagsulat.
Hindi yan para sa ex ko. LMAO! :))
Kala niyo lang yownnn~


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CHESKA po te.
Hindi Sydney

Whoever Found My Yesterdays

Whoever Found My Yesterdays
by Alfred Yuson

Please fold ’em carefully as I had,
and store in a shoebox, Nike if possible,
then place mothballs & cedar blocks
alongside to ensure safety & fragrance.

Sing Lennon as you place the lid,
then stack up in a high place,
so that when the earth shudders
they will come tumbling down

and you’d have to repeat
the process as I had, I have,
I am doing & keeping
to do all the time.

Feel this you sick fuck!

People do things to satisfy themselves.
Our head tells us lots of shit, most of them we follow, most of them we don’t.

Higher Orders
John Bengan

Daña

PIGGING OUT WITH DAñA
April 3, 2009

Dahil sayo, Jamlegend

11:40 PM na nang gabi, wala. Bored pa rin ako.
Wala makausap. Puro plurk na nga lang ginagawa ko eh. Pero ano, may nakita naman akong solusyon sa boredom ko. Yun eh ang JAMLEGEND! Taaannnaaann! Super rakon to the max eh! Akalain mo un? Gawing gitara ung keyboard mo? Oha! San ka pa? LOL!
Pero ano, level1 pa lang ako. Pero masaya. At mukhang tuloy tuloy na 'to.

Siguro baka mga mamayang 2AM pa ko makagawa ng AVP para sa debut ko dahil dito sa JamLegend na 'to. Hahahha! Cooollll~

Pero before ko malaman yang JamLegend na yan, nagbasa basa muna ko ng mga blogs.
Secret kung kanino. HAHAHHA! Wala lang. Syempre ano, ayaw ko sa blogs nila. Ehh gara kasi. Parang, nope hindi pala parang. Talagang 3times siya nagboblog kada araw. Ewan ko kung baket. Di naman siya yayaman don diba?

Tas yung iba naman ang nonsense yung contents. Siguro dahil sa summer.
Alam mo kung baket? Kasi pag summer, oh diba bakasyon? So pag bakasyon walang ginagawa yung mga tao. Bored sila. Kaya ayun, super duper blogs na lang sila. Ohaa~ Yun ang naisip kong dahilan eh. Siguro para maplease na rin yung sarili ko at hindi mabwiset sa mga ganong klaseng blogs.

Pero ano---
Hindi pa rin maalis saken yung pagkairita sa mga ganong kakwentang bagay, syempre masungit ako. Madame nagsasabi non. Siguro kaya yown, ayaw ko ng ganon. Yung tipong dapat pag may binasa ako eh may makukuha man lang akong kaalaman. O kaya style sa pagsulat. Pero minsan kasi malas, ayun. WALA! Yung mga nababasa ko, eh mga Conyo Blogs pa.. Yung may mga You know, ahhh, "Ayun, we got bored kasi so we make kain na lang.." Oha! LOL!

Wala lang.
Ganon talaga eh noh,
ayaw mo sa isang bagay pero hindi mo maiiwasan na gawin mo rin yung bagay na iyon.


Ay susmeh!
Nonsense nga ittteeeyy! :)
So yeah! Let's make laro na lang the JamLegend thingyyy~

On my way to legality

So yeah, everything is now set for my debut party on April16.
The venue, the food, the rooms accommodation, the gowns and etc.
It's April 03, 2009 today and in just 13days I'll be legal.
I am sooo damn excited about it.

I wonder what it feels when you are 18.
When you are now allowed to do whatever and whichever things you want.
To go out and went home late and the other things that you've dream to do when you are a kid.

It was freedom indeed.
Freedom in actions.



Friends, you are invited to come. :)
Let's go partyinnnggg all night~
Then swimming after kay? Hahahha :)
Woooot~