Hey Monday!

I hate Mondays. Why? Well I think it is because it cuts my fantasy of resting and sleeping for the whole days of weekend. Not mentioning the thought of the hassle to travel back and forth from Bulacan to Manila.

After class, I went to Mel’s dorm at Dapitan. I taught her some techniques about Adobe Photoshop. I do some camwhoring using her Nikon D80 ^^ Woot! Fun much. Check out my Multiply site so you’ll see the proof. I’ve upload so many photos of today awhile ago. So comments are love baby. :D

Dondon even texted me awhile ago, he shared some of his problems and I did my best just to confort him. Sad. His phone has no charge so we just talked for a short time. I can’t wait for Saturday. I miss him so much.**insert sad face here*

Daniel Radcliffe is love ^^

I’ve been an outdoor rat last week. Went to photo shoot with Vinessa at Intramuros last Friday. And went to Cinema with Dondon to watched the coffin. Actually, it was really Transformers2 Revenge of the Fallen that we should watch. But since that many people are dying to watch it too at that same day like the line of the viewers for the next screening was like a snake crumpled in a circle, we decided to watch The Coffin instead. It was a Japanese “horror” movie. It’s quite nice but not that interesting so better not watch it. Hahaha. Mean much? LOL.

Dondon and I are going to the theatres again this coming Saturday. I hope that fate will forbid us to watch Transformers na. Hahhaha. And oh, Harry Potter’s 6th movie is fast approaching. I really can’t wait to see it. As I watched the trailer, I was amazed that Harry has a new love interest in the upcoming movie. And also Ron huh? LOL. Excited mucchhhh!

This past summer I’ve been a movie buff. I loved the thought of watching different kind of movies, and have to learn something from it. It’s really nice, I think. ^^
Witwiwww~ I also got addicted with the Harry Potter Movie Series, like it really pushed me to buy a DVD Copy of all those 5 movies. =))) Hahahha. And now, I can’t wait for my cousin’s van container from Myanmar to arrive here in our country coz he got a complete set of Harry Potter books, and I will surely borrow it from him and read. ^^ Oh I so love Daniel Radcliffe as a Harry Potter. ^^ How I wish I’m his girl J LOL! SO damn ambitious! :D

Photo Shooooot!

I need a model for photo shoot.
From QC, Manila or Bulacan.
Male or Female, but I preferred female.

No service charge :)))))
Sagot nio lang dress && accessories.
This is just for fun..

So for those who want to be involve in activities like this,
this is yer chance :D
Tara leettttsss!


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09056676109


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"Salamat sayo Cheska co.."

Nakasama ko siya ngayon. Masaya na malungkot. Pero masaya pa rin.
Malamang hindi mo siya kilala, pero kilala kanya.
Takot ka? Wag na.
Hindi naman siya stalker oh kung ano.
Sadyang chinichismis lang kita sa kanya.

Marami akong realization sa araw na ito.
Una, pag showing ang Transformers, mahaba ang pila sa sinehan kahit 3 theatres na ang open para sa movie na yon.
Pangalawa, hindi nakakatakot ung The Coffin na movie. Pero horror movie pa rin daw siya.
Pangatlo, masarap pala ang shawarma. I mean yung may gulay. Sanay kasi ako sa All Meat.
Pangapat, sa Shawarma, berdeng kamatis yung nilalagay pero lasang orange na kamatis. Ang galing noh? Iba talaga pag kamatis! Humahanep.
Panglima, ang sakit pala pag di ka niya kiniss bago bumaba ng jeep. (x_x) So emo like fucckkk! Pero shempre dumadrama lang.
At panganim, pwede na kong gabihin umuwi. Hindi ako pinagalitan. Dahil may supot ako ng SM. Pasalubong sa kanila. Pero suhol talaga yon.


Ang bait talaga ni Lord.
Kasi dahil sa dami ng ginagawa ko, binigyan pa rin niya ko ng oras para sa sarili ko, para sa kanya at para samen. :)) At kahit 1:19PM na sha dumating kahit 12:30PM ang usapan, ok naman. Better late than never daw.

I S P E Y S

Sa bawat puting buhok na binunot ko kanina sa ulo ng aking ina. Mas lalo ko lang nakita ang agwat namin. Tumatanda na siya, pati rin ako. Bawat segundo na hinihinga ko ngayong araw ay dumaragdag sa pagtanda sa buhay na nilaan sa akin. Nakakapanghinayang lang ang mga segundo, minuto at oras na sinayang ko para humiga, humilata at tumambay. Pero minsan binibigyan hustisya ko pa rin ang pagiging tamad. Tinawag ko na lang ito na pahinga.

Bawat tao napapagod. Iba iba man ang sitwasyon ng mga buhay natin. Darating at darating rin tayo sa punto ng pagkakapareho. Punto na lahat tayo at titigil para mag-pa-hi-nga. Nakakapagod kung paulit ulit. Nakakapagod pag maraming ginagawa. Nakakaumay yung galaw ka ng galaw.Diba Minsan nakakasawa na? Diba Minsan parang ginagawa mo na lang ang isang bagay sa kadahilanang kelangan mong gawin ito, oh kaya'y gagawin mo na lang ito na ang nasa isip ay darating ang araw na makakapagpahinga rin ako?



Bawat tao kelangan ng E S P A S Y O --

Pero sa lahat ba ng minsan na nabasa mo,
minsan ba eh naisip mong nakakapagod, nakakasawa at nakakaumay rin magpahinga?

Para Sayo 'to Dada!

Direkta

Mga alas onse ng umaga,
ikaw ang palaging kasama.
Sa maliit na eskinita,
Nagkukwentuhan at tumatawa.

Isa ka sa matalik na kaibigan.
Isa sa mga taong maaasahan.
Ni walang kasawaan,
sa ano mang di pagkakaintindihan.

Ngayon at tayo'y nagkalayo.
Simula ng aking siphayo.
Bahagi ng aking buhay desastro,
umaasenso sa aking puso.


Nakakapangulila ang mawalan,
kahit na panandalian.
Ng isang tulad mong kaibigan,
na tinuring ko ng isang kaligayahan.



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I made this poem for my friend, Daryl Jane.
I miss her bigtime. :'((

Pasensya

Para kong nililiha sa bawat sandali na kinokompronta mo ko. Tila wala akong ginawang mabuti.
Oo, sadyang mahina lang ako. Bumibigay sa bawat singhal ng malakas na hangin na dumarating. Ninais kong magbago at tumayo sa kabila ng sigaw sa paligid. Nilinlang ko ang sarili kong mga mata sa mga bagay na gusto kong makita. Isa ka sa mga bagay na pinanghinayangan ko, mga bagay na gusto ko noon hanggang ngayon pero hindi ko kinukuha.

Paano ko makikita ang metapora kung hindi mo titignan ang mga simili ng buhay?
Mga personipikasyon na kahit anong iwas natin ay hindi mawawala?
Hinihila mo ko pababa, minsan nama'y hinahayaang lumipad at damhin ang hangin sa himpapawid.
Pinaramdam mo sakin ang hapdi ng ironika.

Hindi kita makita.
Hindi NA kita makita.
Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin, pasensya.

Q&A

I also posted my blog about Blog Ethics on my Multiply.
And I just want to share this with you:

xxxchypyxxx wrote today at 9:40 AM

"i truly agree with it...well most bloggers do not think first what they are really blogging and worst, they are ending up with unappropriate words like f*ck,sht,bitch ( unethical languages)...it should be kept in mind that blogging is a public realm and so people could read what you have stated....okey, I also admit then my fault :) im also using those words but now ths would serve as an eye opener for me to be more respnsble and be more cautios enough w/ what im putting in the blog world :D"

bittercheska wrote today at 12:04 PM

"Well I think using those words are okay. Dont forget that blogging is an online diary, the only difference is, the public can read it. Those words are normal for people like us. Even I used those kinds of words. Ethics do not curtail our freedom of expression, we just have to consider some things"

It Sucks Bigtime!!

So I’m torn between being indecisive and being practical. I want to join the network marketing company UNO to gain money. But I doubt for so many things, I’m scared what if I’m not able to invite anyone? My 4,800 will be wasted. But my friend Stephen kept on convincing me that he and the group will help me.

Being practical, I only get this money from my friends. In short, they just let me borrow this money and time will come that I need to pay them back. But suddenly, my cellphone got fucked up this morning, I don’t know what happened but it turned black. And when I try to slide it, it became like a colored TV with the ROYGIVIB colors. I thought that maybe the ribbon’s cellphone got fucked up or the LCD. Last April, I went to SM with my mom to get this phone fixed. Now again? Arrrggg! It will cost me almost 2k. That’s a lot. But since I went to Recto before going home, I came across with this cellphone repair shop, they offer me 600 bucks to fix my phone if the problem is the ribbon or the flex. And if it is not, they said that I should ready a thousand to fix for the LCD. Errrr. I am really so damn pissed off about it.

Money really turns our world around. I wonder why God didn’t allow my family to be rich so I will not have this kind of problem. But in fairness, comparing to others life problems, mine is simpler. :D And I am thankful for that.

Blog Ethics

I came across an article, which talks about blogging ethics early this morning on our University’s official paper, The Varsitarian. It features some of the most well known Journalists like John Nery. There, they talked about the thin line between blogging and journalism. They emphasized that not all bloggers are journalist at the same time. And the ethics in journalism is not the same with the blogging ethics code. It is just a revision of the journalist ethics code.

They pointed out some of the effects that blogging can do in someone’s life. The article said that, “Responsible bloggers should recognize that they are publishing words publicly, and therefore have certain obligations to their readers, the people they write about, and society in general.” I agree much with this, because I know a lot of people who do not know about these basic things in blogging and I hope that they will read this and will serve as an eye opener for them. One more thing about blogging is, one must provide a feedback loop so wrong information can be corrected and opinions can be heard.

A blogger must remember, “The web has a long memory. Almost everything you put there can still be found even if you have already erased them.” True enough. Based on my experienced, one of my blog when I was on High School has been a medium of gossips and even lead for people to be mad at me at that time. Even though that I erased that blog, they kept on talking about it, even my teachers and it really freaks me out up to the bones. My gawwdd! And you know what’s the hardest part of dealing with this situation? It is the time when you need to explain everything at the same time for so many times just for them to understand. But regrets does not come in my vision on that time rather I’ve learned some lessons that I should be more careful in using words when I blog. Well I hope that my readers will have their too when they read this.

“In the end it is up to the individual bloggers to choose their own best practices.”
-Cyberjournalist.net

First Day High

I just woke up from my afternoon nap. Today was my first day of school as a 3rd year Marketing student in our University. I am now taking major subjects in Business Administration. I can say that so many things have changed, from my 3M2 block mates, only Amiel, Kenneth and Catherine was the only persons I know in this section even though that there are so many familiar faces in our rooms, up to finding it hard to spend some time for my best friends due to conflicts of schedule. Errr. >.<

Supposedly, I got 4 classes today. But only 1 out of my 4 professors showed up. He’s Mr. Roger, our Prof. In English 103(Business Communication). I think he’s nice and not that “terror” kind of teacher. I even met him in my way home.

After spending 3 hours more of my life in that room. I went with Valia to meet her sister in UST Carpark, there in Reyes Barbeque we ate lunch with Anne, Tin and Maymay. My best of friends, KP and Daryl did not make it because their class will be on 3PM-7PM so it’s too early for them to come over. Maybe tomorrow I’ll wait for them.

Before going home, my friend Rhoanne suddenly showed up from my back and gave me a present for my debut last April. I’m so happy because even though 2 months has passed she didn’t forget to give something for me. I’m touched actually. Hahahah.

Tomorrow will be a new day again. I wonder if my professors will show up. Hope they will, I’m excited to meet them actually. J

Flavor Of The Month

What if he just loves you right now? And if he got you pregnant, he'll deny you for everything and left you with nothing? Just like what he did to her. Rude, right?

(c) Inspired by a girl whom I just know.
She's in a relationship now with a guy which I think that "not-that-right" for her.
That guy left her ex girlfriend coz he got her pregnant. So rude.

Realization

Since I was a kid, I know that being patient is somewhat impossible for me to do.
But when I got 18, I convinced myself that I should learn to be patient, because in this world, there are things that are worth waiting for.

When I got to be in a relationship with Dondon, I am quite sure that it will not last long. Maybe a week or two, everything will be over. But to my surprise, we are heading for our first monthsary next week. I know that it’s too early for me to rejoice ‘cause there are so many things that can happen still. But this day will be one of the unforgettable days I have with him. In this day, I’ve proven myself that I am totally capable of understanding the feeling of others especially my partner and I am capable to be patient. Thanks to Dondon for making me realize all of this.

In our relationship, I believe that we let each other grow in a way that we want ourselves to grow. He’s not just my boyfriend but my best friend as well, and in his part I believe that I took those role too. I understand him the way he wanted to be understood and vice versa. We do not take each other for granted. And we just let simple arguments pass by.
We spend everyday of our lives with laughter. And when the time comes that we had a fight, we just listen to each other and be sorry for everything then forget about it.

Maybe this time, I can tell myself that finally, I grew up enough to face anything.
I may not be that full geared but in a way I knew that I grew matured enough to understand and handle things the way it should be handled especially when it comes into a relationship.

Hope everyday will be as fine as today.

Keep Your Friends Close

It is nice to know that I have friends, those who are true and willing to help incase of need. I am so thankful to God about that. But it is nicer when I have turned an enemy to a friend. Especially when that someone is used to be my friend or someone who is close to my heart.

I know that I used to be a bully or someone who is not-that-nice-girl. I was silly and shallow. But I believe that we all going to pass a stage in our life that we have to lose what we’ve got, whom we’ve got, be criticized and be swallowed by the society just to realize that we are doing something wrong. And that stage of my life has finally ended. I’ve lost so many friends and evenly mistakenly judged by other people whom I didn’t know. But now, I’ve realized everything. Yes, the damage is done and it will be hard to bring back everything that we’ve shared. But at least, we have forgiven each other and we are willing to built back what have been lost step by step.

Dumbledore once said, “Keep your friends close...”
It’s not that as easy as it was said, but it will be, if we know how to handle them well.

The Fifth Mountain

3:07 AM:
Just finished reading The fifth Mountain by Paulo Coelho. (Well actually it's been 2days since I finished this book, I'm just too lazy to write something about it.)

These are my favorite part of the books:

"A child can always teach an adult three things: to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, and to know how to demand with all his might that which he desires."

"Sadness does not last forever when we walk in the direction of that which we always desired."

" "Is it always necessary to leave?"
"It's always necessary to know when a stage of one's life has ended. If you stubbornly cling to it after the need has passed, you lose the joy and meaning of the rest."

"And everyone is weak when faced with suffering. When tragedy occurs, let people fend for themselves."

Isn't it ironic?

So now I know how life can be so ironic. When the wide horizon up above let the rain pour down in the Earth, my mood will change over and over again. Oh Of course I so love the rain, it brings me something that I can't explain that made my mood in an euphoric one. And ironically, I hate it at the same time, coz it ruins our Globe broadband signal that result to "page load error" to pop up in my screen every time I try to surf the web.

Second was, I have this friend who always calls on me when she has a problem especially when it comes to her boyfriend. And I am so surprised about the advices that I gave her, it felt like I am so that "experienced" that I know what's the best thing for her to do. What ironic was, when it comes to my own heart problem, I am so idle and blank to give some sensible advice.

Truly that life is unfair and ironic as well.
But the only direction is to move forward.
Life is tough; but we can be tougher.