I HATE HIM!!!
For leaving me clueless,
for leaving me hanging.
For leaving me while I am head over heels in love with him!!!
:(
For leaving me clueless,
for leaving me hanging.
For leaving me while I am head over heels in love with him!!!
:(
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
A lesson
The day that man allows true love to appear,
those things which are well made will fall into confusion and will overturn everything we believe to be right and true.
-An Excerpt from The Divine Comedy
those things which are well made will fall into confusion and will overturn everything we believe to be right and true.
-An Excerpt from The Divine Comedy
Lid
Lid was one of the most wonderful person that I had met. Even he's miles and miles away from me, it does not serve as a hindrance. It serves as a challenge.
I don't mind if he's too far away from me, cause I know that we are connected by heart.
I love Lid with a love that a friend loves a friend. With a love of sister cares for her brother. A love of a special one whom I wished to spend my life with.
He's more than a man to me. He's a friend and a brother at the same time.
If God permits me to be with him, I would never ever refuse. :)
I don't mind if he's too far away from me, cause I know that we are connected by heart.
I love Lid with a love that a friend loves a friend. With a love of sister cares for her brother. A love of a special one whom I wished to spend my life with.
He's more than a man to me. He's a friend and a brother at the same time.
If God permits me to be with him, I would never ever refuse. :)
The Zahir (Hatred)
The energy of hatred won't get you anywhere;
but the energy of forgiveness, which reveals itself through love,
will transform your life in a positive way.
but the energy of forgiveness, which reveals itself through love,
will transform your life in a positive way.
The Zahir ; Page 58
The Zahir (Love)
Love is an untamed force.
When we try to control it, it destroys us.
When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us.
When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.
The Zahir ; Page 79
When we try to control it, it destroys us.
When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us.
When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.
The Zahir ; Page 79
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Just an Update!
Silence is worse,
when you can't break them.
Just finished reading "The five people you meet in heaven".
And now I'm starting to read The Zahir.
Thanks Dave for the book!
when you can't break them.
Just finished reading "The five people you meet in heaven".
And now I'm starting to read The Zahir.
Thanks Dave for the book!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Ugly
Wala namang panget sa mundo eh.
Pumapanget lang ang tingin sa kanya,
depende sa takbo ng utak ng taong nag-oobserba.
Nothing
It was hard for me today.
Trying to focus to things just to wash away the thoughts of him.
It felt liked I'm sinked in to a river and drown.
No matter how I try to grasp my breath, the water just fill my mouth and live me stuck there.
How can I understand what's happening if I don't have any idea what was happening?
The way he did this is too harsh!
He just let me hanging and then live.
Why?
What happened?
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
OHSOUNPEYR!!
Well just to know who are the ones that will shed a tear for me if I'm gone. Coz these past few days. No one's there for me in time that I really need someone to cling to. Even my closest friends. Cause I don't have the courage to tell them what am I really feeling right now.
It felt like I am stuck on an oasis.
In a center of desert alone.
No one will know if I'll shout, cry or die.
Sometimes I do convince myself that this is life.
It's really unfair. But my mind neglect those things.
I think that life is really not unfair.
It's the people around us that make life harder and complicated so we label it unfair.
Just like now.
I hold on to someone.
I put so much energy on him.
But he took it all away in a snap.
What's really frustrating is he doesn't even give me a clue, why, when, what happened? Or did I do something wrong.
He just left me without even saying goodbye.
He just left me hanging!!
What did I do?
If I did something wrong, I believe that I do have the right to explain.
Or even just to know about it!
Buttt eeerrr... Poof! He just left!
Without words and explanation.
What does he want?
If he only knew that he's really driving me crazy,
in a way that I cannot focus to other things because of this.
New Set
LOiZ™
12/8/2008 6:31 pm
* hehe uo
ok lang yun wag mo pansinin.
pampam! :p
LORRAiNE.
12/8/2008 6:07 pm
* Hhahaha :)) yea. bgla ako ntawa sknea! hahah. know i now. :D she`s disgusting!
C.A.M.i.L.L.E
12/8/2008 6:04 pm
* yees! she scares me with her mouth... LOL
MIKEE
12/8/2008 6:46 pm
* haha.
yea ryt.
insecure ln siguro xa syo.:))
kimiharts03
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kimiharts03 wrote on Dec 7
haha. yep ate cheska, kapal ng muka nya mg`xbe ng baboy. eh mas panget pa nga yung itsura nya xa baboy eh =))
12/8/2008 6:31 pm
* hehe uo
ok lang yun wag mo pansinin.
pampam! :p
LORRAiNE.
12/8/2008 6:07 pm
* Hhahaha :)) yea. bgla ako ntawa sknea! hahah. know i now. :D she`s disgusting!
C.A.M.i.L.L.E
12/8/2008 6:04 pm
* yees! she scares me with her mouth... LOL
MIKEE
12/8/2008 6:46 pm
* haha.
yea ryt.
insecure ln siguro xa syo.:))
kimiharts03
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kimiharts03 wrote on Dec 7
haha. yep ate cheska, kapal ng muka nya mg`xbe ng baboy. eh mas panget pa nga yung itsura nya xa baboy eh =))
Monday, December 8, 2008
JAMM :)
WHAT A FACE! HAHAHHAH!! :))
And oh take note ang caption pa niya dyan sa pic na yan eh "Dare to be me." Oh poor girl. No one will dare to be someone like you. Someone who is ugly and oww sooo eeweee :))))
And that's not it.
Wala talaga siyang originality. Ang name na niya ngayon eh "Jammi."
Oh fuck! Kawawa naman yung sis ko na si Jammi(Ung original na Jammi) kasi ginaya nitong fucktard na to ung name niya.
I visited my sis profile(the original Jammi) and oh I so love it.
Yung welcome note niya eh "Jammi Orig," "No copycats allowed"
Hahha boom. I hope sana makita ni Jammsot fucktard yun para mahiya naman siya sa sarili niya. Tsshh!
Kawawang bata talaga! :)))
And about the Breaking Dawn thingy.
I read her Gm's and natatawa na lang ako. Nagprepretend siyang alam niya ung nangyayare sa Breaking Dawn. E yung kasal lang naman nila Edward & Bella yun.
And she's a liar. Why? When I got my first blog about her she texted me na magbabasa na raw siya ng Twilight. HAHAHAH! Kaya pala all about Breaking Dawn lang ang giGM niya. Loser talaga. Kung di naman siya tanga eh. If she had Twilight na bat sa Breaking Dawn pa din siya magstart? :))
Ohhhh How I pity her.
She's kinda famous na huh?
Well ofcourse it's because of me. :))))
HAHAH! Ang dami ng nandidiri at ayaw sa kanya.
Well I got my new collection of her pics :)
Enjoy the advance Halloween!
And oh take note ang caption pa niya dyan sa pic na yan eh "Dare to be me." Oh poor girl. No one will dare to be someone like you. Someone who is ugly and oww sooo eeweee :))))
And that's not it.
Wala talaga siyang originality. Ang name na niya ngayon eh "Jammi."
Oh fuck! Kawawa naman yung sis ko na si Jammi(Ung original na Jammi) kasi ginaya nitong fucktard na to ung name niya.
I visited my sis profile(the original Jammi) and oh I so love it.
Yung welcome note niya eh "Jammi Orig," "No copycats allowed"
Hahha boom. I hope sana makita ni Jammsot fucktard yun para mahiya naman siya sa sarili niya. Tsshh!
Kawawang bata talaga! :)))
And about the Breaking Dawn thingy.
I read her Gm's and natatawa na lang ako. Nagprepretend siyang alam niya ung nangyayare sa Breaking Dawn. E yung kasal lang naman nila Edward & Bella yun.
And she's a liar. Why? When I got my first blog about her she texted me na magbabasa na raw siya ng Twilight. HAHAHAH! Kaya pala all about Breaking Dawn lang ang giGM niya. Loser talaga. Kung di naman siya tanga eh. If she had Twilight na bat sa Breaking Dawn pa din siya magstart? :))
Ohhhh How I pity her.
She's kinda famous na huh?
Well ofcourse it's because of me. :))))
HAHAH! Ang dami ng nandidiri at ayaw sa kanya.
Well I got my new collection of her pics :)
Enjoy the advance Halloween!
Put the blame on me
I could not believe that it will hurt this much. All this time, I believed that I'm keeping myself intact to the boundaries that I forbid myself to cross. But I have failed.
I had gave up my heart in a way that I did not notice that I'm giving it in. I fell too fast that I did not manage to keep up.
I thought everything we have as a friend will end up to something new and wonderful.
But he's not in the same boat that I'm riding.
All this time, I am alone- thinking that he's also there with me.
I reach for the paddle and swing it to the fullest, but I cannot move on. It felt like he became the water that keeps me going. And without him, I cannot move.
The pain was too strong that I cannot help but cry and break down.
And the worst thing is, I am the one to be blame.
For I am the one who expect more,
the one who waited,
the one who does not realized I am just an ordinary person to him.
A friend. No more, no less
And the one who thought that his sweetness can mean something and never thought that it can also mean nothing. Just being sweet.
I cannot be like her.
I will never be. But deep inside of my fragile being. I wish I can.
And I wish that I knew about her.
But why in the world that he doesn't bother to tell me about it?
Why only now?
Now that I have stumbled and fell.
Sadly. After that these all have been said.
I cannot do anything about it.
But at least, I can always go back to the box that I'd live before I met him.
To the time that all that matters to me is myself.
Now, it's a must for me to surpass all of these inferiorities without him knowing.
He will never know how much I adored, liked, dreamt, needed and love him-ALL THIS TIME.
NEVER.
I had gave up my heart in a way that I did not notice that I'm giving it in. I fell too fast that I did not manage to keep up.
I thought everything we have as a friend will end up to something new and wonderful.
But he's not in the same boat that I'm riding.
All this time, I am alone- thinking that he's also there with me.
I reach for the paddle and swing it to the fullest, but I cannot move on. It felt like he became the water that keeps me going. And without him, I cannot move.
The pain was too strong that I cannot help but cry and break down.
And the worst thing is, I am the one to be blame.
For I am the one who expect more,
the one who waited,
the one who does not realized I am just an ordinary person to him.
A friend. No more, no less
And the one who thought that his sweetness can mean something and never thought that it can also mean nothing. Just being sweet.
I cannot be like her.
I will never be. But deep inside of my fragile being. I wish I can.
And I wish that I knew about her.
But why in the world that he doesn't bother to tell me about it?
Why only now?
Now that I have stumbled and fell.
Sadly. After that these all have been said.
I cannot do anything about it.
But at least, I can always go back to the box that I'd live before I met him.
To the time that all that matters to me is myself.
Now, it's a must for me to surpass all of these inferiorities without him knowing.
He will never know how much I adored, liked, dreamt, needed and love him-ALL THIS TIME.
NEVER.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Jamm Patetica
You know that creature? >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Hahahha! She's Jamm/ JammSott/ Lic on friendster.
She's the most pathetic loser that I've ever met.
Well, let me give you some of my reasons. :)
Oh pls don't be scared. Tao yan :)
Well, she used to be one of my friends and chatmates on friendster. But I became distant and annoyed to her when I sent a GM to her phone about my blog site. Kinabukasan. Aba may blogspot na rin siya. Owww. Okay. Hahahaha! Ano un gayagaya? Lol!
Second, my name in friendster is Cheska™, and since matagal ko na rin naman siya nakakausap non I know na ang name niya lang don eh Jamm, Jammsot whatever. And now, ang name na nya eh Lic™ Hahhaha! Wow. Nakikitrade mark na rin siya. Tssh.
Third thing, she's kinda epal. Why? Di ko na nga siya nireplyan nung last na comment niya sakin tas bigla na lang siya nag comment sakin ng "bitter", so my initial reaction was "Huh?", I asked her why did she say that and she just said "bittercheska kasi eh". Well, yes, bittercheska is my multiply username. I got her point but dddaaaaaahhhh??? Ano naman? Hahhaha! Wala ba siyang makausap kaya nagpapapansin pa siya? Eeerr. I asked her why sya nagcomment sakin sabi niya dahil wala lang. Ooowwww how nice of her, she wasted her time commeting me just for nothing. Tssh! Ano kaya yon? And take note, wag ko daw gawin big deal yun. Hahahha! Ano naman ang big deal don babe? Sang banda? Hahah. She even said na wala lang raw akong masabi. Hahhaha! K fine, kaya pala nagcocomment lang siya sakin para magpapampam eh noh.
And last but not the least, awhile ago magkatext kami about Twilight thingy, and ofcourse nagmamagaling na naman siya. Bitin daw siya movie. So I got confused hindi pa naman niya nababasa yung Twilight tas alam n niya yung story as in yung story talaga ha? (And ang sabi pa niya sa Breaking Dawn daw siya magstart magbasa. HAHAHH! Tanga amp! Goodluck kung magets mo.)
Going back, sabi niya "Gusto ko part 2." I said, "May part 2 tlga yon series nga eh."
Then she replied "Oo alam ko." Hahahah! Boom! Saying the obvious is foolishness. And Im not asking for her opinion. :))))))
After ng reply na yon she started to make GM na to her list. Na kesyo "opinyon ko to" na hwag ko daw pakeelaman. At di naman daw niya hinihingi opinyon ko. Tsshhh. Eh hello??? Hinihingi ko ba opinyon niya?? Mga ganon bagay ba. :))))
I called her tanga, well reality bites babe. Just being honest. Sorry.
Dapat nga magpasalamat ka pa sakin kasi tinatama kita sa mali mo eh :))
And oh favorite niya pala kong sabihan ng "baboy!", "magdiet ka muna", panget ka na nga panget pa ugali mo". Hahahha! Well, take a look at her pictures:
Sino naman mas panget samin?
Daaah tiga Cagayan pa siya. Halatang katutubo talaga eh noh? Tsshh!
Di ko naman sinasabing maganda ako, ang sinasabi ko lang eh panget siya. :)
And what I like the most eh, she called me an idiot. Hahhaha! K :)
I really appreciate that thing babe. You're building me up. :)))))))))))
And oh, your calling me a loser? Walang binatbat?
Hahahha kaya pala super GM ka ngayon at naghahanap ka ng kakampi. HAHAHHA! Nakakatawang pagmasdan kasi pikon na pikon ka. :)))))))))
Sino kaya ang loser satin ngayon? Tssshhhhhh!
Ang pagkapikon ay malaking senyales ng kabobohan.
Tanga na nga bobo pa. Sos! Kaawa awang nilalang.
And kung ano ano pa sinasabi mo kesyo "copypaste ang blog ko"
OMG! That's so old school babe. Wala na bang iba? Wala ka na bang masabi at pati issue ng iba eh dinadamay mo? I pity you :) I really do.
HAHHAHAH!
Well, I am not a bad person babe.
But remember, ang pinakaayaw ko sa isang tao eh yung gumagawa siya ng paraan para iprovoke ung bad side ko. I understand everything and everyone as long as I could. But there will come a time that I'll blast. And so sorry. The time has come. Hahhahaha!!
Comments are very much appreciated:
http://www.friendster.com/comments.php?uid=33914355
Tribute for Jamm. So long.
Reactions:
- haha. nde nmn xa pretty e.
pra syng horse.:P
HAHAHA.:)
di bgy ung brace sknya.
- cheska :)
ay parang baliw lang. e di anong naintindihan nia dun? rarrrr. crazy. haha.
o kumusta pala? you were out last night. :3
- ya know
that jamsott girl
was like one of my friends ata??
but i never talked to her
LOL
i read your blog
and the pictures
ROFL
NYWAYS
course mo?
- nvmn nlng.
hehehhe
ang panget nmn ng kaaway muh
mas mgnda kpa iska
hehehhe
ok lng cz..
hmm..
cnu yang
hayup n
yan?
haha..
- ang kapal kapal
ng pagmumukha nya!
napaksama naman ng pag-uugali nya!
as in!
haha
nu bah yan?
pati ako nanggigigil na
LOL
sh*t natawa ako jan
oh. lels!
- haha
ansimple lang nmn ng
pinagawayan nyo
tapos ganun na xa?
gawd!
- wahaha :D
as in, ROFLMAO.
anover, kaaway mo
nga? :P sama naman
nyan.
- Woah! nvm.
ano ba yan,
andami nyang alam
maligo lang yata ndi.
HAHA :P
breaking dawn kasi,
nagmamagaling pa. :P
ROFLMAO
- panu un ngyre?
crap!
she's a retard
:)))
- HAHAHA. xD
totoo naman eh
tingnan mo! andami kasing
alam, sumobra tuloy! edi
labas nya ngaun muntanga.
honga eh! "dont be scared
tao yan" grabe! katakot eh.
HAHA!
- i know her chelsea! my gad i used to call her KAWAII coz she's kawaii dw. hehe XD
natatawa ako sa mga post sa blog mu.
palaban. wahaha
tama yan!
PANGET KA NA NGA, MAS PANGET PA AAPI SEO.
tsk! infairness ha!
mahal kita :)
jayaan mu na yung mga INSIKYORA
mas maganda tau jan! haha labyoooo
ate!!
am fangiit nung nsa baba ["jamm"]!!
dang!!
pweh!!
hehe
:PP
stEphanie jUlia said...
XDD Grabee. My sis.XDD Lakas ng Loob nia haha.
Honestly, She looks like a horse.XD
Im not saying that im pretty im just telling the truth.
Mas mgnda ka pa jan.XDD
Kahit chubby ka KYUT nman.
Jusmee. Aba nman. Maawa xia sa srili nia.XDD
- tagal noh.
bt kea genun.
oha..
panet ka dw?
uhla naman panet e.
except fr the eyes of the insecure bitches.
ahww.
- nabasa ko blog mo :j
hehe ganun ba sya kaepal?
haha! sabihan kaba ng panget!
mukang ano sya KWAN~!
:) lol
- Miss dn kita? :)
Musta?
Sino ba yang nsa Baba. kapanget eh xDD
- Ano b nmn yn sis? Haha ewwness xa! Alm mo dpt lng sknya sbihin n PANGET na nga xa e PANGET pa ugali nya! haha such an effin! :D Yaan m xa. Kmuka nya si richie the HORSIE hahahaha :)) You know him? hhahaha.
- hahaha
nakuh
:))
mukang tindera s palengke s ineng ohh
lmao*
=))
nakuh nakuh
lam nia bng glit k s knya?
hehe
:]
eks.dee
- san banda dun? HAHA
talaga naman ganun xa
eh, dami alam maligo
lang yata ndi! HAHA :P
- helow!:)
sheikha.11.f.zambo. city.
sau.sau.?
nabasa q ang blog mo!
hahahaha
natawa aq.
- ahiiii...
hai ate...
hapi holidays xau...
amuahp t.c palage
(nabasa kuh un blog muh...)
hoho... e2 lang masabe koh!!!
YEAH!!!! GO GIRL>>> HOHO
+paranoia+mariz+murmur+
loves
+mono kuro boo+
- sis
u pretty than that girl!
she a idiot..
fugly woman!
cheer up girl..
ur pretty and
sexy for me!
YANN HELLENE™
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sinu yang monster na yan? :)
aRvin
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hehe.. :)nabasa ko kasi yung blog about the "twilight" thingy,hehe.yung sinabi nya babasahin nya muna yung breaking dawn.gudlak nga kung maintindihan nya.hehe. :)
shalala :)
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kc.kc..tinatawag ka niyang "PANGET" na xa nman pla YUN!hahahahaha
SHiBENTOT.xvii
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ahaha!!bgy lng s knya un noh!!she's so PATHETIC!haha:PPohhhahaayuup ate cheska:))may negosyo k n ngaun ahhxDeks.dee
- Haha. Ou.
Ng lumapad nman muka nia.
Muka kasing kabayo e.XDD
Ndi sa pagmamaganda pero that's a FUCK FACTS about her.XDD
Pig is cute.
Pwahaha.
Bwiset aku dun>XDD
- nakita ko sa blog mo :)
panget haha! so ano,
nag teteks pa din xa
sau or nag cocomment?
lakas ng apog haha!
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About Me
- Cheska
- I live for the nights I can't remember with the people I'll never forget. Y!M: iskantarium http://cheskamanuel.co.cc/ http://sexycorries.co.cc/
hahah
natawa aku
dun huh xD
aux lan yan
cz mas mganda ka
nman jan ee
SAMA NG
UGALi NMAN NYAN
wew :p