What will happen next?

"The future is not set." It is one of my favorite lines from the movie "The Terminator.".
One moment you're happy then sooner or later it will be a tragic nor simple opposite of what you feel on the latter.

This day has been a roller coaster ride.
Before I went to bed yesterday midnight, Patt(a friend) and I had a super long conversation about him. What happened, what's new with us etc. etc.(DETAILS SEALED!)

I woke up at 10:30AM.
It's freaking hot so I went straight to the kitchen then grabbed a glass of iced water. Went back to the sala, then to the bedroom to fixed my things up. Yesterday is the supposed day of my homecoming in our "real" house. But Daña insist that I should stay here for 2 more days. She even asked me to hand her my cellphone so she can call my mom to tell about it but unfortunately I don't have enough load for a call, so I sent a message to my mom and she approves it. So I'm still here in Pandi. Woot! :)

After Lunch, while JV, Via, Vince, Daña and I were watching DVD (Men in Black II).
Daña fell in the sofa and her head hit the table's edge. Gawd! If you'll just heard how "boom" it was, you'll think that she can die in that moment. LOL.
I run to go get her coz she's starting to cry. I asked her if it hurts and she just stared at me and touch the back of her head. On that moment, I stood up and look at her head. Nothing unusual. And when I touched it and saw my hand --there were blood. As in BLOOD! Super dame. As in!!!

I am so shocked. I automatically grabbed her, try to bring her to her mom. (Kinaya ko yung batang yun nung oras na yon. Kahit super bigat niya!) My hands and shirt are full of blood. Nagfreaked out talaga ko non, iyak pa siya ng iyak. Tas ang hirap pa niya buhatin. It's like what you saw in a movie wherein you have to run to save someone's life. Hindi sa exaggeration. Pero parang ganon talaga.

We rushed her to the nearest clinic since super haba ng byahe at traffic pa pag sa ospital.
The doctor said that Thank God that it was just a simple wound. Nahiwa lang daw. Hindi naman malalim kaya hindi na kelangan ng stitches. Tumigil na siya sa pag-iyak. Pero natatawa pa rin ako pag naalala ko yung mga sinasabi niya saken kanina "Ayaw ko pa mamatay,' "Ayaw ko maubusan ng dugo." "Ooperahan ba ko Ate Cheska?" With matching iyak, uhog at hagulgol pa yan. Natawa ko kasi galing sa bata, 5years old tas ano ang gara.. "Ayaw ko pa mamatay.." Parang ang lalim. Kaya natawa na lang ako.

"The future is not set,
There is no fate.
The only fate we had is the one we make.."

You got me confused.

"COMPLICATED"

its when you don't know where you stand in a person's life. its when you're hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime. its when you're like more than friends but not really and its like you're lovers when its really the otherwise. sometimes you would want to wish to have never met the person at all,but at the back of your mind you're thankful you have.

Grab from Paula

It is somewhat you are single, yet taken for granted.
You're hurt yet can't blame anyone for your pain.
You're allowed to expect but not to assume.
It is your choice, my choice.
-Che

The sun came down to it's final set

It would have been a great day,
when the sun says hi to me.
It would have been a great day,
if when I opened my eyes this morning, it's you that I'll see.
It would have been a great day,
when I can sleep all day long with nothing to worry.

If I can summoned all my pains and sealed in a box,
It can be a great day.
If I can throw back all my remorse;
It can be a great day.

But nothing was left here to be great.
No you, No us.
Or even potentialities.
Only and only, ifs.

(C)Cheska

You're drawing circles in my system

The other day, we seemed to get along well,
Awhile ago, it felt like you don't want to share a word with me.
Now, you got me all confused.
Maybe tomorrow, when the sun rises it's peak,
you're coming home again to her.

Or maybe, just maybe
you'll stay.

Copyright (c) Cheska

Wow Astig!

April 26, 2009
Santiago's Reunion.
Ang saya kahit hindi masyado kumpleto masaya pa rin. Maraming bata kata nakakatuwa. Lagi pang topic yung debut ko, kasi eto yung next occassion after debut, so fresh pa. My mga palaro, syempre nanalo ako, naka P40 rin ako noh. Nabigyan din ako ng ninoy ni Tito Harold.

Pero siguro ang pinakaclimax ng lahat-lahat eh ang pagpapahiram saken ni Tito Howell ng SLR Nikon D300 niya. Grabe, ang saya saya ko. Feel na feel ko eh, kahit saglit lang. Grabe. Tas nalaman ko sikat na sikat na pala siya dahil siya yung kumuha ng Panorama ng Eheads concert, grabe asttiiiiiiiiiiig! Proud ako sa kanya saka gusto ko maging tulad niya. Sana bili na ko nila mama nun. :'( Minsan nagsisi ako kasi nagdebut party pa ko. Sana pala pinera ko na lang. Hayst. Pero yaan mo na. Dats layp! :)

52% virgin!

Here's the deal... Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Don't bother typing answers to the question....it makes it more interesting! The lower the score means the nastier you are.
Then repost as _% Virgin

1. Smoked?
2. Drank alcohol?
3. Cried when someone died?
4. Been drunk?
5. Had sex?
6. Been to a concert?
7. Given a handjob/gotten a handjob?
8. Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob?
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed?
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 92%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up?
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose?
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before?
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend?
15. Been to prom? -
16. Cried at school?
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store?
18. Went streaking?
19. Given or received a lap dance?
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 86%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over?
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house?
23. Kissed a stranger?
24. Hugged a stranger?
25. Went scuba diving?
26. Driven a car?
27. Gotten an x-ray?
28. Hit by a car?
29. Had a party?
30. Done serious drugs?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%

31. Played strip poker/darts?
32. Got paid to strip for someone?
33. Ran away from home?
34. Broken a bone?
35. Eaten sushi?
36. Bought porn?
37. Watched porn?
38. Made porn?
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
40. Been in love?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 76%

41. French kissed?
42. Laughed so hard you cried?
43. Cried yourself to sleep?
44. Laughed yourself to sleep?
45. Stabbed yourself?
46. Shot a gun?
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day?
48. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours?
49. Been online for 9 consecutive hours?
50. Watched an animal die?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 70%

51. Watched a person die?
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present?
53. Pranked somebody?
54. Put somebody in the hospital?
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out?
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex?
57. Dressed punk?
58. Dressed goth?
59. Dressed preppy?
60. Been to a motocross race?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 67%

61. Avoided somebody?
62. Been stalked?
63. Stalked someone?
64. Met a celebrity?
65. Played an instrument?
66. Ridden a horse?
67. Cut yourself?
68. Bungee jumped?
69. Ding dong ditched somebody?
70. Been to a wild party?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 60%

71. Got caught stealing something?
72. Kicked a guy in the balls? -I'll try :)
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend?
74. Went out with your friend's crush?
75. Got arrested?
76. Been pregnant? -Leksie? =)))
77. Babysat? -Always!
78. Been to another country?
79. Started your house on fire?
80. Had an encounter with a ghost?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 59%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients?
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by?
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex?
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months?
85. Sat on your butt all day?
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself?
87. Had a job?
88. Gotten cut from a sports team?
89. Been called a whore?
90. Danced like a whore?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 56%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity?
92. Been in a car accident?
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes?
94. Been told you have beautiful hair?
95. Raped somebody?
96. Danced in the rain?
97. Been rejected?
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying?
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face?
100. Been raped?

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 52%

Big mouth

There are a lot of things that is occupying my mind this time. Love, Friends, school, Financial problems and boredom ofcourse. It is 12:57 in the morning and I can't find some movie to watch, or should I say, a good site to watch on. Awhile ago, I'm watching American Pie Beta Haus, I got thrilled, but unfortunately it did stop in the middle of the movie so nothing good happened. One more thing is my Yahoo Messenger, I can't open it. So I'm on Meebo lang. I don't know what's the problem with that. Nakakafrustrate lang lalo.

In addition pa yung mga tao sa friendster na tumatawag sa akin ng ate coz I'm 18 na. Almost all of them asked me how was it to be on legal age? Duuuh. For me, nothing happened naman eh. I just turned 18. Plus one lang sa age ko, nothing change in my routine and activities. I'm still the same damn lazy faggot slash dork in our compound, err minus the PC. (My computer is still fucked up. So Thank God I'm here at my aunt's house.) What's amazing about that? Maybe they are thinking that, now that I am 18 I can do whatever I want to do, or do things that my parents do not allow me to do when I am still considered a kid. Naaaaaaaah. For me, hindi ganon yon. My parents are open minded naman kahit paano. They are not the type of parents which is too conservative or what. And they do understand naman, syempre I'm studying at Manila, so the culture and the environment itself that I need/or get used to di ba? So yon.

Another thing is, si _____. Yon.
Hayst. I dunno. I really like him. Well pero magulo eh, mahirap ung situation. He likes someone else. Masyado siyang maraming iniisip. And I know iba rin ung tingin niya sakin. Sabi nga ng friend niya wag na daw ako maghintay. So what em I goin' to do diba? Hmmm. Pero ok naman ako kung anong meron kami ngayon. Atleast we are friends naman. We talk. We share problems. Pero kanina iba siya, moodswings na naman siguro. Tss daig pa talaga non ang babae kung topakin. Hahahah. :) Maybe that what makes him different. I cannot fully explain eh. But still, I do like him naman.

Sana may natulong ako sa kanya sa mga sinabi ko sa kanya na advice. He is so down. Ang emo emo nga niya eh. Tsk. I want him to be happy, but not with her ex. Maybe it will be best if he was with me. But I don't want to be selfish naman, so sabi nga niya, he's going to enjoy his life as a single.

Hayst.
This was the first time that I wrote and opened this much.
My hands just keep on pinching the keys, nakakatuwa. Iba yung feeling.
Heheh. My back aches pa rin. Tsss but it's ok. :)