08262010

It was a tiring day. School, Business and Event coverage. I just realized how hard it is to be a event coverage photographer and writer at the same time. Why? Becasue you have to capture detailed pictures that implies the whole message of the event and at the same time take notes about what the speaker is lecturing about. And what’s worst is, it was really hard if you don’t have anyone at your side as your companion. I was the team leader, photographer and writer. All-around ‘te.

Anyhoo, I enjoyed the forum. I met different kinds of people. Students, lawyers, Board of directors, NGO’s representative, Legal Rights Association representatives and politicians. I was given the opportunity to sit beside the politicians’ seats and it was really hard especially when they started to ask me some question about our school and other things, all of them was really intimidating!!

The best part of the forum that I enjoyed the most was when the former Governor of Marinduque started arguing about the facts and statistics presented in presentation. He was really shouting! I thought that in anytime he’ll have a heart attack or something because his voice was really booming and basta, the atmosphere was really creepy… The lawyers and NGO’s representatives did nothing but stare. It was really fun to watch and at the same time scary.

So yeah.

How’s your day? Hope you had a nice Thursday :)

I’ll be uploading new stuffs in my online shop: http://sexycorries.tumblr.com/, feel free to look.

Right love. Wrong time.

I woke up with a bit of fever, cough and colds all together summoned in my body. I think this is my consequence for crying last night. Yes. I cried. I cried for you, again… It’s been a rollercoaster ride of emotions, it feels like I’m juggling love and hate in front of me. I don’t know what to choose… Should I let go? Or should I hold on?

I love you. And you know that.

We’re almost there. I almost had you, but somewhere along the process… You declined. You refused. And that what hurts the most.

Hindi na ko naniniwala sa mga salitang "Mahal kita."

Kasi sa lahat ng pagkakataon na meron ka, ni minsan hindi mo naman pinaramdam at pinatuyan saken na mahal mo nga ako. Give and take nga tayo. Ako yung give, ikaw naman ‘yung take.

Binigyan mo ko ng mga katagang inasahan ko. Mga katagang akala ko'y sa paglaon ng panahon ay mapapatunayan mo. Pero parang naghintay lang ako sa wala. Siguro nga wala ako sa mga priyoridad mo sa buhay kaya't lagi na lang akong pangalawa. O pangatlo? Pang-apat? O baka naman panghuli? Hindi ako sigurado kasi ang tanging alam ko, sa ating dalawa ako yung napag-iwanan. Hindi lang minsan. Madalas. Palage.



Napapasaya mo nga ako, pero sa gabi pag ako na lang mag-isa nawawala yung kasayahan na 'yon kasi kinakatok ako ng realidad na kahit ano namang gawin at ibigay ko, hindi pa rin magiging tayo.

You’re not there every time when I needed someone to talk to.

Every time that I want to share something with you, when I want to open up what do I really feel. You’re always there though, always there to reject me. I don’t know if you do it intentionally or what. But it hurts you know? Sometimes I want to be mad at you and tell you about this matter but then I’ll let everything go, ‘coz I know you won’t give a single damn.

Natatandaan mo pa ba nung...

Bago sumakay sa LRT.

Paano kung mapagod na siyang maghintay?



Wala naman nakakapagod sa paghihintay. Dahil dun mo nalalaman kung ano yung dapat mong gawin.

Hindi ko mapigilan humanga sa’yo kasi alam mo yung tamang sagot sa tamang tanong. Hindi man ako naniniwala nung una sa sagot mo, ngayon, napatunayan ko na sa paghihintay dun ka matututo kung ano bang dapat gawin at anong tamang reaksyon sa bawat sitwasyon na darating.

Kung bukas, maulit man ang nangyare kahapon. Alam mo kung paano gagalaw. Kung anong tamang salita ang bibitawan mo at kung hanggang saan ang limitasyon mo.

Alam ko na ang dapat gawin.

Hihintayin kita.

Baka sakaling mapagod ka na sa ginagawa mo at ako naman ang harapin mo.

Para bukas, hawak ko na ang kamay mo. Magkasama na tayo.

Mahal ka eh.
Mahal ko rin naman siya.

Siguro isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit tayo tumagal ng ganito kasi mahal natin yung isa't isa. Yung tipong mahal talaga. Wala lang. Ang sarap kasing isipin na kahit sa dame ng nangyare andyan ka pa rin para saken at nandito pa rin ako para sa'yo.