Dear stranger,

Thanks for smiling back. I am utterly clueless on why the hell I smiled at you a while ago but smiling back was one of the best things(if there’s any) that happened to me today. Before then, my Sunday was so messed and fucked up because of my mom. She’s a great nagger btw, and she’s really doing good as days pass by.

Today, she forced me to attend my cousin’s christening, yelled at me when I got home and scolded for things that I have no knowledge of.

Because of these, I decided to ran and visit the mall instead. I was alone but it’s okay. I need some time for myself. I need to think and calm down. And that’s the time when I saw you. You’re a bit cute but not that handsome. A so-so guy perhaps, and that smile that I gave out was not really intentional but maybe you’re a godsend-whatever so you smiled back.

With that, I found my way home.

230 Days Of U

Day 15-21: We still talked but now, we venture to talk about other deeper things about us. There are days that we stop talking because you seemed busy and have no time to go online.

Day 22: You finally found the time to go online and visit your Tumblr. You sent me a message saying it’s been awhile since you read something from me.

Day 23: I got your phone number. We started texting.

Day 24-26: There’s a time that I said that I have no load so I can’t reply to your previous messages. You said it’s okay since you’re unlimited text thingo is near on its end. :”>

Day 27: We found out that we have a common close friend. Dhel.

Day 28(to be cont.)

230 Days Of U

There’s no us anymore, what’s left here are just you and me. I should have realized earlier that God has given me a great opportunity when I met you. Maybe He sent you to make me happy and make me feel love and special in a certain period of time, just that. We can’t be together longer than that span of time. You were destined to be with me to make me better and make me see things in a different way then leave afterwards.

But let me bring back ‘our’ days. Here’s a timeline from the beginning till the end. A form of reminisce, a form of saying how much I missed everything. 230 days of you, number and description of days are not exact, sorry. Memory gap you know. But this timeline will just describe what happened, what went wrong and when did the/your love start to fade.

Day 1: I followed you, your Tumblr page I mean. I cannot remember on how I ended up in your blog and start to backread on your posts. You were the topless boy on that time because of your DP. LOL. Goodtimes.

Day2: You sent me a T.A saying thank you because I followed you. You even called me ATE. Thanks huh!!! LOL.

Day3-8 You post a lot of things. Mostly reblogs actually.

Day9 I unfollowed you.

Day10 You messaged me again saying that “Inunfollow mo…blahblah” I just made up a reason that I was just “dashboardcleaning” and I will come back and follow you again.

Day11-12talked via TA. [Vague memories]

Day13 I followed you again. We talked, not only in TA but in Y!M.

Day14 We talked on YM. We played 20 questions. I asked you if you’re gay. When you said no, I asked you if you’re single.

Day15: (to be cont.)

If you happened to be a fan of Vampire Diaries.

I’m talking about the TV series, well better stick to it. For realz. Don’t dare to read the book series because the storyboard was plainly stupid! From Katherine’s decision to make Damon and Stefan vampires so all the three of them can live happily ever after till eternity, to Tyler’s being a werewolf(like seriously? WEREWOLF for the fucking time again?) to Elena being dead, then the appearance of Klaus, then Elena helped Meredith(Meredith’s not included in the TV series), Bonnie, Matt and the Salvatore’s to throw Klaus out of the world then the spirits(the solstice) decided to bring back Elena alive in Earth.

See? If Stephenie Meyer’s a bitch coz she stole LJ Smith’s idea of the story, WELL THANK GOD FOR HER LIFE at least she gave a more sensible plot. Hah!

Di ka naman ata totoo

Parang nawalan na ko ng gana magmahal. Hindi dahil nasawi at nasaktan na ko sa nakaraan kung di dahil parang hindi naman talaga totoo na merong pag-ibig. Kung meron man, bat ang dameng mga pulube sa kalsada? Bakit ang dameng holdaper? Bakit ang dameng rapist, mamamatay tao, mga korap sa gobyerno at mga taong walang ginawa kung di mang-api at manira ng ibang tao?

Kung totoo ang pag-ibig, bakit ang dameng nasasaktan. Ang dameng nangungulila. Ang dameng umiiyak.

Asan ang pag-ibig don?

I'll start from the last story

I went to my past friend’s house this morning(around 5AM) to drink. Past friends because I don’t consider them as my friends anymore. I’m in a phase where hi-hello-how are you-goodbye exists. We nailed down 3 muchos of Red Horse then lots of cigs and chips as pulutan.

One of them kept on pestering me about goddamn Facebook. He was so upset that I was not able to accept his friend request for almost 3months now. Truth be told, I don’t really want to accept him there. He’s a part of my past and I don’t one anyone from there ruin my present nor be part of my future. I shit you not when I say that my past is the ‘worst-est’ phase of my fucking life. Name it, I’ve been there, I’ve done that. So yeah.

Back to what I was saying about his friend request, I just answered him that I’m not as active in Facebook as before. And since he was a bit alcohol consumed na, he kept on asking me the same question again and again. Around 8am, after the Red Horse drinking, booze, jizz and a lazy morning sex, I went home. Just like that, as if nothing happened. As if I’ve never seen them.

Another morning waking up with someone else's bed. Uhhh~

Life goes on.

I thought my mom will wash my lunchbox.

But unfortunately my hunch was wrong. I left my lunchbox in the sink last night hoping that my mom will wash it this morning. But when I went to the kitchen few minutes ago, I saw my baunan ‘unwashed’ (if that’s the right term for that, but I bet you know what I mean so what the hell).

Maybe I should stop depending to mah folks. :cry:

LOL. Drama.

I hate it when you act as if you don’t know me, as if we haven’t shared a lot of good things together. I hate it when you start ignoring me through text and in person. I hate it when I ask you questions about us then you start answering me with a smile. I hate it when you do that.

Remember last time that we had dinner?

That’s also the time where I got to take a picture of you using my camera phone. And you really look like a cutie hunk slash boy-next-door in the photo, well honestly you’re really a cutie hank slash boy-next-door kind of guy in person. Hihihi!

You know what I did? I made that photo my cellphone’s wallpaper. So every time that I’ll look in my phone’s screen, I will always see your cute face smiling at me. You don’t know how much you inspire me with those smiles like that.

In every day that passed, I’m really liking and loving you more.

Someday babe, someday…

"306 people like this page and hates Cheska"

Really? 306 people HATES Cheska? As in hates? WOKAY.

“Broken hearted nanaman si Cheska”

-Yeah sure I’m quite depressed about thesis, school and OJT but heart problem? I HAVE NO TIME FOR SUCH for now. Thanks anyway. ;]

“Sabi ng tropa ko na tropa rin ni Cheska pinerahan lang siya. Pero di ko alam yung buong storya ha?”

-Brosha Summers

REALLY BITCH? So I assume that your tropa that tropa ko rin kamo knows about who I am dating with? About what REALLY happened and what’s really happening? But wait BIG bitch, DO WE HAVE THE SAME FRIENDS HUH? SINCE WHEN? Can you please enlightened me. AND CAN YOU TELL ME KUNG SINONG TROPA “mo” yon? :D Well, if you can. :)

AND THE FACT THAT YOU ACTUALLY DON’T KNOW THE WHOLE AND TRUE STORY yet still ended up given those kind of statement about me is what? SAWSAW PUTA? Go fuck yourself with a saw.

And the fact that you idiots are FOLLOWING ME HERE ON TUMBLR and keep on stalking my blogspot account are somewhat PATHETIC? CAN. YOU. JUST. MIND. YOUR OWN LIVES? :) Oh I’m not sure if you have some.

I know that you guys are morons and you’re good at these deeds but sorry, you can’t bring me down. You’ve been there for how many months? But still, you haven’t proven anything. YOU CANNOT EVEN FACE ME.

Pst!

Boy: Uy!
Girl: Baket?
Boy: Pwede mo ba kong samahan?
Girl: Saan naman?
Boy: Habangbuhay? :)
Girl: Iihhhhh :”>

If you want us to be okay then make an effort to fix things up.

Stop waiting for me to move. Stop waiting for me to do all the effort just for us to be okay. I’ve done that a million times before and I grew tired of it. It’s your turn now. I want to know if you really care about us. Do something. Do something for us to be okay.

Nakita ko 'tong bb girl na 'to kanina sa sementeryo. Habang yung nanay niya hirap na hirap magsindi ng kandila dahil sa ulan at hangin, siya naman hirap na hirap hipan yung kandila after masindihan ng nanay niya. EPIC!

I better be off setting my life to a new perspective without you. Yes you who never knew the importance of simple things that I did for something that we almost had. You never really understand me, the things that I did and the things that I said. You never really knew how to be in my place right? No I am not, mad. I am just tired of understanding you. I’m sorry. :’( I am just too tired to be the only one who did all the understanding. You’re still my best friend and the best man that I never knew. I’m sorry, but I can’t go on with you right now.
And I’m quite perplexed seeing your message in my Tumblr ask tonight. But still, we’re better off this way. And just like what you said, thank you and take care.

Finally, after the long wait (one week) I got my I.D today. I’m now an official bb gurl who works for an internship at IBM Daksh located at Edsa Square at Mandaluyong (just across Shang). So if you happened to go there or just somewhere near the location. Please do contact me because I’m just human and I want some social life too. Hmmkay?

I'M THE 290TH PERSON WHO LIKED THE HATE PAGE. :)

I think it was the fourth time that I like my hate page because the admins was too scared so they're erasing me in that page. I don't know? Duwag? Weakling? :)
LOL.

No connection to my previous posts.

This is about us.

Last night, I slept with a wide smile ‘coz you reminded me that whatever we had and still have is still special to you and you’re not changing come what may. Though sometimes we’re not in the “good condition”, last night, you proved to me again that I’m still special and love by you. And what’s more brilliant was, you reminded that no matter how much you accidentally hurt me in these 3 months that we’ve been “together”, I love you. I still do. Nothing changed.

But tonight, it seems like the heavens and the Earth are against us. You disappointed me again. You prove to me that I’m just a “second-best”, that without our friends, there will be no us. We cannot be together. And I hate you for that. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.

I’m too tired of being hurt over and over again.

I want to let go and not hold back.

I don’t know. I HATE YOU TONIGHT.

Ugh. You made me cry again.

Ganda ko naman

Before reading this. Please read this first.

As far as I know, nanahimik ako rito at biglang may nagtext saken ng “Hi…”

Tapos… “beb.” Tas “Meet tayo.”

Sa beb pa lang kilala ko na kung sino kaya inignore ko na lang.

Tas nalaman kong may iba pa palang pinepeste ‘tong hayop na ‘to kaya nagtext ako ng “Pati pala si *** pinuputakan mo. Cheap mo. LOL”

tas eto na ang sumunod na eksena…
Sa text lamang ito.

Marush: Problema mo?
Me: Bka ikaw my problema. Ikaw una nagtext. Lol. Baliw kn tlga.
Marush: Mukha mo. Bt kita ittx?
Me: *binalik lahat ng msg na nareceive ko*
Marush: tangna. gang ngaun pla ngcocommunicate kau. ge. mgsma kau. tantanan nyo nko. kapal ng mukha. tnxt pa gamit number ko mgkasama pkme. ge.
Me: ?
Marush: auq na cheska. maawa kau ni mumu xken. mxado nyo nakong cnasaktan.
Me: Lol. Wala kong pakeelam sainyo. Baliw na baliw ka sakanya diba. HAHAHHAHA.
Marush: sbhn mo n gusto mo wala kong pake. tantanan nyo nlng ako.
Me: Ako ang tantanan niyo at kau nagtetext sken. :)
Marush: kelan pa kayo start na nagkita ulet?
Me: Never kme nagkita. Bt ako makikipagkita? Ska kau ngtetext sken kya pd b wag mo ko baligtaren. Gngamt nia lang txt nia ksen para makagante sayo. Ewan pareho kayong baliw.
At dyan natapos ang drama ngayong gabi. Grabe. Mga baliw na ata talaga sila. Ako pa ngayon. LOL. ANOBAYUN.

Nakakapagod magsalita lalo na't hindi ka naman pinakikinggan.

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This bastard texted me again tonight. I know that it’s Marush, my former bestfriend’s girlfriend. The psycho, the bitch, the slut and whatever you want to call her girl. I think she’s in a mood to have a cat fight tonight so she/he texted me. I now that she’s going to say another bunch of bullshits and nonsense talkshits so I just ignored her/him message and give you her/him number instead.

So yeah guys. You can text her/him and tell him/her whatever you like.

It’s “her/him” ‘coz I don’t know if she’s really a she. Gets?