No connection to my previous posts.

This is about us.

Last night, I slept with a wide smile ‘coz you reminded me that whatever we had and still have is still special to you and you’re not changing come what may. Though sometimes we’re not in the “good condition”, last night, you proved to me again that I’m still special and love by you. And what’s more brilliant was, you reminded that no matter how much you accidentally hurt me in these 3 months that we’ve been “together”, I love you. I still do. Nothing changed.

But tonight, it seems like the heavens and the Earth are against us. You disappointed me again. You prove to me that I’m just a “second-best”, that without our friends, there will be no us. We cannot be together. And I hate you for that. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.

I’m too tired of being hurt over and over again.

I want to let go and not hold back.

I don’t know. I HATE YOU TONIGHT.

Ugh. You made me cry again.