Minimum Fare

This day was a very tiring one. Me and my mom went to UST to enroll for my 3rd year in college. Since I am now majoring in Marketing, I got my conforme's list before I went to the enrollment's office. Super hassle coz my bestfriends are sooo late so I need to get their conformes too. So yeah, thank God that they came before I start hyperventilating because of pressure and super duper heat!

What's best about this day was I got to ride again the "lipad" jeep of Blumentrit, it was like you got a free ride of Enchanted Kingdom's Space Shuttle and listened to music as if you were wearing a headphone with volume turned up so high. All of these for P7.00 minimum fare. Hahaha. What I fancy about these was, I honestly missed doing this kind of stuff. 2months of vacation means I've been idle in the Urban world. And I am so happy that as soon as June 9 arrived, I am baccckkkk again to the world I wished to belong since gradeschool.

After school, we went to Trinoma to buy a pair of school shoes and a pair of uniform for my brother. My feet was drastically wrecked. Hahahah. Ang saket super. Pero mas masakit pag walang paa. So okay na yon diba?

"Life for me is not the sameeeee..."
Lss ako sa How Do I breathe eh?

Condemnation

I wrote this last night when I got pissed off by the Gm's that I am receiving from one of my former blockmates. Nagpaparinig kasi, and I find it O.A na and lame kasi he's a "he" so parang ang lame di ba? I'm happy naman kasi when I sent this via GM he replied, natamaan naman sha. Hahahha! :D

"One should not condemned others on how they run their lives. If they made mistakes, let them. If they hurt others, so? It's their karma anyways. Why bother?"

Let's talk about love.

It's exactly 8:43 PM and our family is watching this Filipino version of Koreanovela "Only You".
What caught my attention about this show was, when the leading lady Angel Locsin had an argument with TJ which role was played by Sam Milby. The argument was all about love, if what love means for them.

Angel said..
"Kung mahal mo ang isang tao, handa kang masaktan makita lang siyang masaya.."
Is it really love? Is this love what is all about?


For me, it's more of a sacrifice. Even though that we can say that sacrifice is a form of love.
But for me, love is not all about sacrifice and martirdom.
When you love, there is hapiness that can go beyond all the pain. You are free.
You don't have to bother yourself about anything and about someone's renunciation even if it's about someone you love.

Love is not like that. It is not allowing yourself to be hurt. It's not about being selfless.
Yes, pain is inevitable when it all comes to loving someone. But love is not all about pain.
And it is more important to love yourself more.

Love Bein' Stupid

Thank God there's a webcam :) Hhahahah.
This is really the best remedy for boredom in my world.

Before bedtime

Out of boredom, I got some contact lens pictures from deviantart and tried it on my pictures.
Hahahahha. I can't find something to do at 3:58 in the morning. I bet that in a few minutes Ate Lyn(the maid) will be awake soon and I need to be asleep before she catch me still online in this wee hours. Hahahha.

Later I'll be off to Bocaue to visit Dondon.
I hope there will be no moodswings attack so we can enjoy every minute that we are together. :)




Woof!
I'm off to sleep ^^.

Life is unfair

Some people mistakenly look attachment as love.
Attachment in a way that they've been with someone for a long time now--long enough that they've shared so many moments together and that convinced themselves that it is love.

I myself even have times like this in my life. And every time that this will happen. I just can't simply ignore it just like that. I admit that I am a bit paranoid, and when confusion starts to bother me, prayer is the best remedy that I know.
I do cry sometimes, even though that crying doesn't help anyone to do anything.
It just helps us to blurt bad things out on our system.

So yeah. We are talking about attachment.
And I can't explain anything about it.
Hahahha sorry. :)

I just have this friend that has a problem with that kind of thingy.
And what a small world, the guy that she's into it is the same guy that I do have some "contact" with. You know what I mean. :)

We are on the same boat.
But I can say that I can manage myself well and handle things when this situation got out of hand and the boat start to sink. Tsk!

Life is very unfair.
Really unfair.

Stayed Up Late again!

So I'm doing it again-staying up late at night.
It's exactly 3:03 in the morning but I'm still here online doing some nonsense stuffs.
I can't sleep, well the truth is I can. But I choose not to. Reason? I honestly don't know. maybe it's just a bad habit that I can't control.

June is fast approaching. Some says that June 8, our class will start. Some of my block mates have already seen their schedule, well I hope that I can see mine as soon as possible. I got my account on E-leap be activated with the help of my classmate Antonette, and she told me that I should wait the confirmation letter that will be send in my email. But unfortunately, until now. I haven't receive any email yet. Sad. Arrrggg!

I got pissed off so many times today, and I just find it interesting to say it.
Well, not including the reasons huh? Coz honestly, I can't remember why. Maybe it's moodswings or whatsoever.

But still, I find this day a great one.
I'm back on Restaurant City and on Pet Society.
Gawwd! I miss playing these games. It sucks coz our computer can't handle such applications. Tsss. I suggested to my dad that if we can buy a new one, but he refused. Tsss. Duuuh? It's so luma na kaya at super naghahang pa. Nakakainis na nga gamitin minsan eh! Hmp!
So much for that.


Last Thursday night, I went to Bambang to visit my old friends.
Naginuman kami don, I met new set of friends. Almost boys. 2 lang kaming girl dun eh.
Masaya naman kasi matagal na rin akong di nakakainom, saka nandon si Dondon ih. My so-called boyfriend at this time. :) I really had a great time with these guys and I'm looking forward for more moments with them. Lalo na ngayon na malapit na ko sa kanila.

So yeah, after Bocaue. Iw ent straight naman dito sa Bunsuran. As usual, online na naman ako sa kahit anong oras ko gustuhin. Pero wag ka! Naghirap din ako bago makapagOL noh! Kasi kakagawa lang ng CPU so nakabaklas pa sha pagdating ko. I assembled it, and Good! Nahirapan ako huh? Pero nakeri naman kaya ok lang. :)
I think masaya naman mga tao dito kasi may computer na ulit sila hahahha.

And the finale.
Hmmm. Philippines is now infected with the virus h1n1.
It was brought here in the country by a child from America. Sad.
Kala ko ligtas na tayo pero di pala.

At hindi lang yan, all over the news was the scandal of Katrina Halili and Dr. Haydhen Kho. It was all about their sex video and other videos of Kho having sex with different celebrities and model.
Almost every news show featured this issue so I'm getting fed up with these.
Tsss.

Pinapalake nila kasi mashado ung issue eh.
So what if mayron sex video si Katrina Halili? Duuuh she's a sexy star, she even posed almost nude in a men's magazine. Magulat sana sila if si Sarah G. yun right?
Tsk!

Am I making sense?
Hope so.

Kris Allen [American Idol of 2009]

So America Finally decided who's the nest American Idol. And in this season, Kris Allen made a spectacular win over Adam Lambert.

These two is such a great competitors.
But Adam Lambert, for me, ahhhmm, is not that good singer. Why? He only knows the high chords, the rock songs and ballad. But Allen, is an "all-around-artist".
Kahit saan mo siya ilagay, he'll perform it well. May puso. Unlike Adam, parang lagi na lang nasa competition. No offense meant with those LAMBERTIANS huh? Hahahha.

So yeah, ang sayasaya ko.
Bet ko si Kris eh, tas super crush ko pa siya ng bonggang bongga.


Some says na mas sisikat pa si Adam Lambert kasi ganon naman daw talaga palage?
Ung pangalawa ung sumisikat. HAHAHHAHA.
Well ,let's see na lang. :) Masyado pa maaga para magjudge ng ganon.

Lame-Ohhsss! :)

Sympathy

So almost everyone's going loco with this Haydhen Kho and Katrina HAlili's Sensual slash Sex Scandal video. First of all, do I get MR. Kho's name correctly spelled? Hahaha. If not, sorry.

As far as I know, those videos has 3 parts.
1st Video - Haydhen & Katrini is having a sensual dance in the tune of Careless Whisper, I have that video on this Account.
2nd Video - Is the sex video.
3rd Video - Is Haydhe Kho with other Brazillian Model and the another woman.

I've watched the first two videos and I felt very awful for Katrina.
She was totally wrecked as an actress and as a woman as well.
Tsk! Tsk!

Sad.

Society is like salt water.
Good to swim in but hard to swallow.

Insight

Life is Tough;
But you can be tougher.

Subic

Saturday; May16 2009
Subic; All Hands Beach; Royal; PureGold; Chowking, San Fernando.

Saturday.
No sleep at all.
4:00AM ang calltime, nagDVD marathon na lang ako. ng Harry Potter.
3:30Am, nagbihis na ko. 4:00AM nagising si Daña. 4:30AM dumating ung sundo.

Diretso kami sa Duhat para sunduin sila Mama.
Then off to Subic na. :) Una punta muna sa Olongapo Proper, nakakatuwa ung palengke don may nakalagay sa bubong "Bawal ang tamad sa Olongapo" Natawa kami ni Gab, bawal pala kami don. HAHAHAH.

Sinundo namen si Tita Beth. ung kumare ni Ninang na may asawa sa All beach resort. Kaya yun libre kami lahat. Ang saya, simula umaga hanggang hapon kami nakababad dun sa beach. Kaya eto, ulikba na ko. :( Super sunburn pa.

After pa magswimming mindgraine ang inabot ko. As in super sakit. Parang binibiyak. :( Huhuhuhu. Hanggang ng makauwi na kami. Super sakit pa din. Not mentioning ung sakit sa ulo na binigay ng CHowking crew saken, ang tangatanga kasi, mali mali ung order namen. Tapos na yung ibang kumain kulang pa din yung samen. Init tuloy ng ulo nila mama at Ninang.

Ayon.
Nakakapagod pero masaya.
Dameng camera, iba't ibang klase pa. HAHAHAHA
SLR, Digicam, Camphone at kung anoano pa.
Syempre ako naman lagi ang utusan pag kuhanan na eh kaya minsan wala ako sa pics :(:( Pfft =/

Anyways...
Fisrt time ko nakapagbeach, puro bitch kasi nakikita ko eh.
HHAHAH.

Pictures are available at my Multiply.

Dig

These days, I've been addicted to one of Incubus great hits "Dig".
I viewed it's video in Youtube and read some of the comments there, some says that it's great, it's a wow and the lyrics is too strong that it doesn't need a video to interpret.

For me, it's nice.
Very nice and soulful.

Here's the Lyrics:
INCUBUS - DIG LYRICS

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify.
Look me in the eye and ask for forgiveness;
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again
Yes you are my friend.

We all have something that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me
Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.

We all have someone that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh each other....
When everything else is gone.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, ohh
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

Oh each other....
When everything else is gone.
Oh each other....
When everything else is gone.

Thursday

Ngayon lang sinipag magOnline at mag-update ng Blogs. :)
Last Thursday, namiesta kami ni mama sa Lolomboy. Dapat hindi na ko sasama kasi tinatamad na ko, saka ginising ako ng maaga eh ang usual gising ko ngayong bakasyon eh 12:30PM. Pero dahil na rin sa kasibaan, tumuloy pa rin ako.

Madameng pagkaen.
Tipong di ka magugutom ng 5 araw kung dun ka nakatira.
Ang saya noh?
Pero malungkot sa part ko, di naman kami nakatira dun eh. HAHAHAHA :))

After non, diretso kami sa SM.
Nagwithdraw ng pera at bumili ako ng bleach para sa buhok.
I'm planning to make my hair in pink before June. So yown.

Nagmamadali kami kasi gusto ko abutan yung American Idol.
Kasi nun na iaanoounce yung top2 eh.
Ayon, natanggal si Gowkey.
Sad :(
Si Lambert at si Allen tuloy.

So I'll go for Allen na lang.
Gay daw si Lambert? HAHHA >.<
Saka masyado siyang pet ni Cowell. :)

Happily never after

It is very difficult to accept that somethings in life will never go back to the way it is used to be. Even if you put all your might to fix things up, there will always be a "Just-let-them-be" part.
And this part of the story, I cried.

I always wanted to have a simple but happy life.
A happy and complete family.
But now, actually since the beginning, even though they acted as if everything was doing great and nothing was wrong, I knew that there is some flaws that should be settled.

Since then, I devoted myself to strive and do everything for them--just to keep them intact.
I became deaf for their quarrels.
I became blind for all the messages that I read that both of them have different affairs.
I tried so hard to act as if I don't know everything.
I always prayed at night that my family will still be a family.


I know that there is still a chance, and I know that they are trying so hard to fix everything just for me and for my brother's sake. And I still hope that everything will be fine as if nothing happened.

I know everything.
And I cannot do anything about it.
I am too scared to move coz maybe I might do something wrong and make it worse.
I don't know. I want to talk to them, to the people that they are with and tell them that I am hurting so much. Me and my brother are hurting silently.
Gawd! It really digs us up to the bone.
(I know that this was the reason why my brother gone bad and do rebelled.
I cannot blame him. I myself even thought of doing some crazy stuff, but I stopped myself coz I know that I should be responsible enough.)

Lord Forgive me, for...
I want to curse the people that they are with.
Those people who pushed them away from us-from each other.
I want to kill them-literally.
I want to tear them into pieces.
I want them to feel what my brother and I was feeling each and every night since this happened.

I am just a child, Lord.
Fragile.
Weak.
Confused.
and..
hurting..

I just long for the family that I used to grow up with.
Please make it happen again..
even just for a day. :((

TJ

"Maraming Salamat po Sainyong Lahat,
I love you all.
I love You *turo sa isang audience*
Maraming Salamat po Sainyong Lahat. *smile*"
-Pamangkin ata ni Kuya Germz TJ ata yung name.


Almost 2:31AM na.
Lumabas sa kwarto kapatid ko, hindi siguro makatulog at nambubulabog na siya naman daw sa PC, deadmakels lang ako kaya binuksan niya na lang yung TV, at Olaaa! Naabutan namen yung That's Entertainment ni Kuya Germz, yung point na kumakanta si Rainier Castillo (Malas naman!), tas after non nagpaalam na sila.

"Maraming Salamat po Sainyong Lahat,
I love you all.
I love You *turo sa isang audience*
Maraming Salamat po Sainyong Lahat. *smile*"
-TJ

Sabi yan ni Tj(Not sure sa name). Yan ung ending speech niya.
Nagets mo ba ibig niyang sabihin? Kasi ako hindi. Totoo. Seryoso wala ko naintindihan.
Nung narinig ko yan napa "wwwwwaaaaaaaaattt???!!" na lang ako. napatingin ako sa kapatid ko at yung kapatid ko natawa na lang kase hindi rin niya nagets yung sinabi ng "host" na yan.

Siguro kung ganyan lahat ng host sa TV papakamatay na lang ako.
Ano kase eh, hindi abot at arok ng IQ ko. =)))
Hindi ko alam kung utak ko may problema sa processing part o sadyang wala lang sense yung sinabi ni TJ.. hay TJ, san ka ba nanggaling? Pasalamat ka at gwapo ka at sikat ang pamilyang pinanggalingan mo.

Siya nga pala..
I love you..
I love you all.

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mothers Day to my Mama,
and to your mom as well,
and if anyone here in my contacts are already a mom.
Happy Mothers Day na rin :)

My mom is a neverending song in my heart of comfort, happiness, and being. I may sometimes forget the words but I always remember the tune.

Saturday

Masaya naman ang Sabado. Actually katatapos lang namen maglaro ng binggo at magsungka ni mama. At ayon, talo ako most of the time. Hindi ko sadyang magpatalo. Sadyang borlog lang ako sa mga larong ganon. Actually may utang pa nga akong chocolate sa kanya kase nanalo siya sa Black Out, pustahan kais yon. Pero may utang din naman siya sa akin na bente pesos na load. Kasi nanalo ako nung pangalawa. Oo-lugi ako. Mahal kasi ung chocolate. Nyahaha! Pero hayaan mo na. Yun lang naman kaligayahan ni mama eh. :)

Bukas mother's day na. Plano ko siya itreat sa Red Ribbon ngayon. Pero since magSubic kami kasama pamilya ng Tita ko pati si Lolo, sabi niya wag ko na daw gastusin yung pera ko para may pera ako sa Subic kaya nauwi kami sa pagbibinggo at pagsusungka dito sa bahay. Hahahaha! Masaya naman eh kaya ok lang.

Nagulat ako sa sigaw ni lolo. Tinatawag ako kase di ko pa napiprint yung sulat niya sa Water DIstrict kaya napaopen ako ng PC, pero dahil sa sobrang hightech ng aming printer, hindi ko pa rin naprint. Papaprint na lang ako sa labas bukas. Uutuin ko muna si lolo para di mainip. Hahahaha.

Wala na kami pera. I mean kulang na ata yung panggastos namen. Syempre nanguto na naman ako sa tatay ko sa text, sabi ko magSusubic kame kaya kelangan ng pambaon, eh buti na lang at pumayag siya. Papadala daw siya ke Mama sa Monday. Masaya naman ako kasi may regalo na si papa ke mama para sa Mother's day. Si papa kase parang pagong yun eh, I mean yung shell ng pagong. Wala man lang kasweet sweet ke mama. Pero syempre para rin siyang pagong, cute siya. Hahahah. Maloko yun. Kaya nga namimiss ko na si papa eh. :( Pero konting tiis, uuwi din siya. Saka sabi nga ni mama, "Masarap pala tong "pensionada" pahiga-higa na lang tas magwiwithdraw na lang." Hahaha. Pero siyempre joke kang yun, baka mabasa to ni papa magtampo na naman yon. HAHAHAHHA!! :))=))

Hi papa..
Miss ko na tyan mong malake :))=))

AkoMismo: Be heard!

Nagsign up ako kanina sa site ng Ako Mismo. The first time I've watched the commercial, na-amaze ako. Super. Parang eto yung nag second d' motion sa Iamninoy.

Ang cool. Pinoy na pinoy. :)
Tas yung pledges pa nakakatouch. :)

Does anyone know kung san nakakakuha ng dogtag ng akomismo or even nakakabili? Pati yung items ng Iamninoy. Ano rin yung site nila?

Thanks sa magbibigay.
And try to visit their site den:
akomismo.org

Sign up din kayo :) K?

Welcome Back!

There is a certain degree of satisfaction in having the courage to admit my errors. It not only clears up the air of my guilt and defensiveness, but often helps solve the problem created by the error itself.

I'm back from the grave. Our computer got fixed and Globe broadband was reactivated. Thank God for that. But as soon as I went online, I've done things again that I shouldn't in the first place. I've said so many words and ask some questions in a particular person this night. And I think that's why he got pissed off. I cannot do anything about that. So yeaah, this night must go on.

I missed updating my online journal. I have so many things to tell you but I do not know where will I start so I better not tell it to you na lang in sequence. What poppin' comes first.

I've deleted 1.97GB of pictures here in my computer.
I've checked my twitter account and change my avatar there twice this day.
I've made a collage of our family with the help of photoshop.
I let my mom used my computer this afternoon. *wow* LOL
I do not make gala this day.
Nagpaunli ako. *wow* HAHAHHA. Kahit wala naman katext. LOL!
I've got 4 alerts now in PLURK. HAHHAHA.
I've got a new light effects. Tnry ko siya kanina. :) Ang cool.
What else? Hmmmm.
I'm sort of annoyed with this girl in our group. She's a carboncopy type. :D Pero keri lang.
Ahhhh~

Wala na ko masabi :)
I'm planning to watch a movie after this so I hope the net connection will be good as in good para maload ng maayos ung movie. :p

Hi May! :)

Bye April!
Hello May! :)

May 2: Happy 18th Birthday Maymay! So sorry, I can't come.
My mom's so bum! She didn't allowed me to go. :(

True Enough

I got this result when I took Facebook Quiz entitled: "What does your mind look like?"

My mind is like a Still Lake. I walk through life slowly and safely. I don't take many chances, but rarely fail to accomplish my goals although I can sometimes be considered lazy. I am easy going but hard to figure out. I have a good sense of humor.

So occupied

Umaga na naman ako natulog kanina. Hindi na to dahil nakaonline ako or may katext ako. Sadyang hindi lang talaga ko makatulog. Pabiling biling ako sa kama. Ilang beses ko na nga narinig pumalasak si mama sa inis sa akin kasi ang likot likot ko.. Hindi ako makatulog eh. Ang dami ko iniisip. Una dun eh, napakarami ko na palang nagawang mali sa buhay ko. Kagabi bad shot ako dun sa friend ko na nirereto ko sa classmate ko. Nainis ata sa akin. Tsk. Strike 1. Tas sunod naman, gusto ko umalis kagabi, oh kaya kahit ngayon na lang para makaattend sa debut ni Maymay. Pero ayaw pa talaga ko payagan. Ang dami dahilan, kesyo wala pera, kesyo puro gastos na lang daw alam ko. Saka kakauwi ko lang daw galing sa one week bakasyon sa mga tita ko tas aalis na naman. Hayst! Strike 2 na. Tas ngayon naman, viniew ko yung page ni Leksie sa Multiply. Asar ako dun eh, ang plastik kasi. Pero ok na yon, hahaha. No issue na. Karma naman sa kanya yung pagbubuntis niya eh, tas di pa pinagutan. Tss. Naaawa ako sa kanya, pero ok lang yon. Sa mga kwento naman na sinasabi sa akin about sa kanya eh deserve naman niya yun. Saka baka blessing na lang sa kanya yon. Ok so much about her. Viniew ko yung multiply site niya kasi nung binuksan ko yung album namen ni France nagview pala siya(yun yung time na contact ko pa siya) matagal na yon kaya viniew ko na lang din. Tas sa ga blog niya may nakita ko comment ni Iska. Ewan ko ba kung bat galit na galit yun sa akin. Sabi pa niya "Hindi joke lang ng bagay." Oo hindi nga, pero sana wag na lang siya makisali diba? Pero yaan mo na, wala naman mararating kung maiinis pa ko sa kanya, magaling daw siya eh. Hahahaah! Pero hindi yang yung sa Strike 3. Nakwento ko lang,. :)
Yung strike 3 eh tungkol sa nanay ko. "The Blob", The Blablablablob to be exact. Ang dami na naman kasi niya sinasabi eh. Hahah nakakairita. :)) Kagabi gustong gusto ko na tumakas para gumimik. I even ask my brother to go with me :) Coool. Pero inisip ko baka magwala si mama pag ginawa namen yun kaya pinilit ko na lang matulog.

Sira pa din yung computer ngayon. Pero gumagawa naman na ng move si mama.
Tas sa Monday, hopefully maenroll na ko sa Mandarin Class sa BSU para naman maging productive kahit paano yung summer ko.

Just-So-You-Know

Our computer's got fucked up. And I don't know when will my mom do something to settle that thing. Sucks right? Yeah, I know I know.


I don't know when will I able to go online again.
But here's my # for you to contact me when a miracle happens and you do miss me:
09056676109

Gimik? Nightlife? Gala? Or whatsoever.
I'm on for that. Hahhaha. So just text me na lang 'kay?
MagpakaFC na lang kayo, it's fine with me naman eh? :))


Do add slash follow me na lang on my other accounts:
prancheska.blogspot.com
twitter.com/lunaticsummer
plurk.com/prancheska
plurk.com/cheeseka
Y!M: iskantarium
friendster.com/cheesyka