She

She wants to listen on how angels sing with you. But you denied her.
She wants a walk, but you don’t want to go with her.
She wants to know more about you, but you don’t want to talk.
She wants to hold you, but you keep on pushing her away.
She wants you, but you wanted someone else.
And now that she’s gone, all she wants are peace and serenity.

I don’t know what will I do if I’ll be the one in a thimble like that. But I know that she’s strong enough to cope up. She’ll learn how to listen to angels and know how they sing, she’ll know how to walk alone, to stop thinking about you and stop wanting to hold you. Someday, she’ll get tired of you. Too.

I want a man who can make me happy.

If I am not here

I am probably in my bed sleeping soundly as I can. Mouth half opened to breathe easily and mind thoughts are swimming to universe heading to dreamland so I can be with you in my dreams. But due to my mother’s demand, I am here. Alone. Tumblring. Without you. And that sucks. I am missing you terribly.

You’re pissing me off.

How I wish I can strangle your neck as hard as I want to. See you choke ‘till you reach your last breath. But then I realized that you’re just as intangible as love. I can’t hold you. Ok that’s it. You pissed me off.

I always dreamt of having my own library.

I started to become a ‘bookworm’ when I was in my elementary days. That’s the time of my life where I can say that my mom loves me the most because she’s so supportive on my love for books at that time. Actually, she will always buy me 4 books/novels to read everyday, and me, I will end up ending the day with 2 out of 4 of these books read.

When I entered high school my passion for reading continues, but my mom stopped on buying me books. By that time, my bookshelf in my bedroom is almost full. And since my mom won’t buy me a single book even though I plead for it, I learned to be thrifty and save my excess money and buy books just to sustain the need for reading.

When I started my third year in high school, the learning and the reading stopped. I focused more on my studies by that time and that earned me to be the top of our class for the whole year. When my senior year in high school came, I am caught in the middle of focusing in my studies and training for the Bulacan Private Schools Competition for Chess so the learning and the reading is still not on my timeline.

When I entered college, I went back to my first love; reading. That’s where I read all of Paulo Coelho’s books, Mitch Albom’s The Five people you meet in heaven, Twilight Book series, Harry Potter, The Host, Bob Ong’s Collections and many more books that titles I hardly remembered. By that time, my bookshelf is now full and it was extended until it reached my desk table, the one below my bookshelf.

And until now, I can say that I am still in love for this passion for reading. And I can say that this is one hell of an achievement for me to be proud about.

I am exhausted.

My morning class ended at exactly 11AM and I headed to UST publishing house to buy books, then met Alexis, Kokey, James and KP to have lunch. I even saw Kevin (NKVP) in front of the publishing house. We ate lunch in a carinderia in P.Noval, by that time Cedric is now with us. But James needs to attend his Ethics class at 1PM so the 5 of us was left there.

We visited TOMWEB booth on Plaza Mayor and planned to join tomorrow. All of us will pass our application tomorrow. I saw Tey on the way.

Then Alexis, KP and Kevin toured me and Cedric in their beloved Carpark, I mean, College Building. Infairness, AMV ‘floor’ (hello, isang floor lang kasi LOL) was very elegant and more beautiful compare to our building.

Then Cedric and I headed to St. Raymond’s to attend our class.

My Laboratory class was kind of boring. We tackled HTML and made 3pages website, I finished the activity in time. My class ended at 5PM.

By 5:15 in the afternoon, I am currently standing on the bus for no one dares to give me their seat. This is how gentlemen Filipinos are. Huh! Anyway, I’m still thankful that I arrived home before darkness fell.

Kapag may nahulog, it's either may sasalo or may pupulot.

Parang sa pag-ibig. Sa sitwasyon kung saan may nahulog(fell in love), it's either may sasalo, kung malas ka at walang taong kaya kang panindigan at saluhin, mahuhulog ka at lalagapak sa wala. At sa kalaunan, may darating din na pupulot sa'yo at handang saluhin at alisin ang sakit na naramdaman mo noon.

Last first day

Every thing seemed perfect. Well expect for the sad fact that you’re not with us, with me for this day.. Goodnight.

Wed

I only got three subjects today and all of my professors came. I just learned this morning that I have one hour vacant every Wednesday, from 9-10AM and my last class will be 10-11AM. Tsk. Di pa pinagdikit dikit yung class para maaga uwian.

Don't push me to my limit

I can be very nice and can also be the worst person that you’ll ever meet in your entire life. I can be your best friend and can also be your best fiend. :) I am evil in the purest form of evil. HOHOHOHO. Just saying.

One way or another, I’m still afraid to lose you.

I cannot afford to lose someone like you. Days from now, we are heading to different universities. You’re going to meet new friends and prettier girls. I wonder if you’re going to be tempted by their looks. IDK.

I’m going to stick with you ‘till the end. No promises between us, but you assured me last night about things that going on about us, and that’s all I need to go on free of worries. :)

You mean so much to me.

The time has come for me to delete old memories and create new ones.

I’m starting all over again with you. I miss you. Sayang wala ko kahapon. Anyway, 2 days more and I’m going to see you again. :”>

If I’m in Japan, I want my name to be Taba Chuy.

FML. My tripod is missing

Black is nowhere to be seen. Yes, I named my tripod Black.

FML. I can’t find it. :’( Mom forgot where she put it last time. Goddamnit!