As if I can relate?

You can tell if that person is someone special because no matter what kind of mood you are in he/she can always manage to make you smile.

Bye February

This week has been a dreadful week for me. I lost my boyfriend, skipped class for 2 days, got drunk for 3 consecutive days, got a hard time finding companies wherein I can apply for a summer job or for an internship program, and now, bombarded with a lot of paper works to do that should be submitted next week.

But as this dreadful week comes to its end, I still have that one sinister smile in my face. Life fucks us all, but who cares? :) As long as you keep your feet on the ground, strongly standing every storm that passed you by. You will always end up winning. Heartbreaks and failures are always there. You’ll stumble and fall but those things are not important, what matters most is the way you handle those things and how you push your self to stand up again. And blah blah blah blah. :) This is how my February ends.

A poem written especially for me

Life does not end

when circumstances change,

when relationship fail,

when people leave, when hearts break;

wjen someone stops loving you

(or refuses to love you in the first place)


Sunny skies mock cloudy eyes

it is this cold, cruel incongruity

between us that hurts the most

I just want to make it through

I just want to make it

stop, they say it’s okay to pause

sometimes, but I badly need to

fast-forward to myself again

Hate is much easier to control than sympathy and concern and love.

With hate, you just let it shoot off into random directions, with sympathy and concern and love, you have to find the right target, and you have to know why you are sympathizing, or being concerned, or choosing to love.

Hate was all intuition and gut feel; love meant you had to take responsibility for your emotions and be careful not to give too much.

HINDI MO MASISISI ANG ISANG TAONG NAGMAMAHAL KUNG NAG-EEXPECT AT NAG AASSUME SIYA.

Dahil kapag nagmahal ka, nandon na yung need at want na mahalin ka rin ng taong mahal mo. Lahat ng good at positive side nakikita mo. At duon ka nagkicling which result to expectations. There’s no wrong to expect to someone especially when that someone has given you so many reasons to expect. Assuming comes when you took that reasons for granted. You overlook those reasons which gives you a drive to expect more, to assume more and put your self in the verge of falling too deep. And when the time comes that what you expect never happened, you rant and get hurt. Don’t took all the blame, you just choose what you knew was right, you just fell in love. And there’s nothing wrong with that. What’s wrong is, maybe, your concept about love. On how love works, and the definition of love itself. In the process wherein you fell too hard for him, do you ever think about yourself? Have you ever love yourself?

Love yourself first. And know the concept of “too much” is not always good.

A quote from Tumblr

I tried to move on. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I tried so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive? The only reason you’re still here? You just can’t let go of someone like that.